hey bloggie..wow..its been long since i've last updated...sorry...didnt have anythg to rant about...and maybe i just didnt want to? well whateversss..so here's and update? enjoyyy:)
so yea..alot of shit has happened since i've last updated...alot of rumours goin round and well i feel like givingg everyone a piece of my mind...bt well i realise there's no point causee it'll make things worse. i just don't get those people who spread rumours? or backstabbers? its just pathetic sometimes cause i feel as if..whatever i've said to them were twisted and told to othrs in a completely different way that it was heard. it sucks the most when the ones that spread it were the ones that you trusted..well at least..you thought you did...
jeremy said its a part of growing up..but well..it sucks. i just don't understand why sometimes people cant just mind their own business and f*** off? sorry for the language..but lately...ever since my bday incident..i just feel like..there's no point. trust trust trust...i lay it on you people and why do i get? an asshole ruining our frenship by doin shit to me and my loved ones? backstabbing me and telling people bad stuff about me which isnt true? hurting the ones that i care about and so on bulshit.
people..why cant you guys for once just get a freaking life if u have none..till u have to come ruin others'. if u have an opinion..sure..talk i dont give a damn...but why spread it to others? do you want to ruin others' lives? so you could feel better about yourself? well damn..you really are so pathetic and stupid. open your eyes...or ur mind and try putting yourself in the person you're backstabbin's shoes. do u want your frens to talk about u? but maybe i guess...you people arent even frens? what do i look like im naive and stupid? im being nice to you guys..cause yea..you're my friends..and what do i hear? you people sayin im fake? and im a b***ch? what? i really don't geddit? does it amuse you people bringing others down? what happen to having a heart? i guess you people have none.
i know my mistakes..you people don't have to remind me..you people dont noe how guilty i feel K? so dont come running along..telling others not to trust me if you guys dont..sorry..but what have i done to you that u have to come menyibuk to my personal life? i've done ntg to you people..seriously...if u say u're afraid i've hurt your frens..den ok..sure...go protect them..instead of saying stuff like....dont be stupid....she hurt ppl before..she'll hurt you too. or u shouldnt trust her or wtv shit you guys say k? my probs between me and him..its stays between me and him..let me be for god's sake? you people are making my life miserable when i've done ntg to u?! so why...my gawd WHY?
sorry to YOU...for hurting you...and i dunno do u listen to what othrs say..but if u do..den i have ntg to say..maybe you contributed? bt i dont care..cause i've told u many times..but u just don't seem to listen that i'm sorry and i miss u. but..its ok..go on and hate me like the others k? i dont freaking blame u. cause..all i do is HURT you right? DISAPPOINT you right? its ok...go on and feel that way..i've said alot of things..but its pointless cause you're stubborn..and well..maybe that's why thing turned out this way. you just don't understand..i might not know how hurt you are..but i cn see it..and i felt it once..and try putting urself in my position knowing you've hurt someone u once loved dearly...dat doesnt believe u either..so yea...im sorry? but once again..its up to u to think..
and to mr KNOCKS...i noe ur paranoid. but imma do my best to make u happy. sorry for hurting u. i dunno what to say..i really dunno cause u don't get convinced cause u say u see stuff dat make u paranoid..den maybe me talkin to othr guys hurts u..do u want me to stop talkin to all males? i cn u noe...u will say yea right..but yea..whats the point? i dun want a man that is like that..and i noe ur nt tat kind. i noe ur fragile and u gt hurt once...but freaking listen to me...i might have hurt u in jan..but ily now..i do..so why why WHY THE HELL focus on me leavin u? do u wan me to really leave u to be sastified? if ok..den i think one day i would..but i wish you knew i nvr wanted to. its like history repeating itself..and this time..i reallt want things to work out between us. i want to be happy wit u...i do..but if ur paranoid ways continues..i'll just give up k? just noe that i love u..i have ntg else to say..cause sometimes its better to say nothing at all..cause there's no point if ppl x listen:)
so to those backstabbers out there..get the F**K away and shut up:)
to the man i've hurt last year i apologize...and just pls forgive me? isit too much to ask for? if yes..than..no point remainin frens if u always remind me abt the pass and the shit i've done..no comments.
and to knocks....i love u..pls jz rmbr that..and well u promised not to be paranoid..i hope u dont..but if u do..i hv ntg to say anymore k?
thanks for ur understanding of ntg people..u all rock:D
