i missed you..

♫♫♫♫♫ Iƒ ♫♫♫♫♫
Ω If I never met you , I wouldn't like you Ω

Ω If I didn't like you , I wouldn't love you Ω

Ω If I dudn't love you , I wouldn't miss you Ω

Ω But i did , I do and I always will ΩΩ If loving you is wrong , then I don't want to be right ! Ω

Ω If loving you is a crime. I'd like to be jailedfor my whole life , in your heart Ω

Ω I love you. Like a fat kid loves Vanilla-Ice-Cream ! Ω

If you have 1000 years of age , i just want to have 999 years and 364 days so i never have to live a day without you

7 words from da bottom of my heart to you

"Forever And Always, I Will Love You"

By - Leng Zai kkb ◘◘◘◘

i found this..in my other blog..i guess i really just missed him..he was so kind and sweet..forgivin everytime..and all i did was be emo and hurt him. i want him to smile. i guess all this time..i was just being selfish to myself..i wanted him for myself..to be his number1..but..selfish acts lead to sadness and hurt..i really dunno..i always tote he x care abt me wen he scolds me..wen he ignores me..i still believe..dat he cares for me..even if im nt his number1..im still his fren..watever he says..it mite hurt..n bring tears..but..i nvr nvr ever..gave up on him..he was da best bro..i could ask for..yet i still caused him so much pain..and i nvr really got to apologize..saying sori..doesnt help..does it? but..i m sori..i really am..how could i show it? i gues..im just still selfish..being my self..selfish stupid n naive.. thanks for being here..my shoulder to cry on..i love you..koh..take care..:)

a poem for a friend..

wow..when through my old blog..and found this poem..very nice..enjoy..=)


poem for a friend

FRENS FOREVA, WRITTEN WITH A PEN, SEALED WIF A KISS,

IF U R MY FREN, PLEASE ANSWER THIS,

ARE WE FRENS OR ARE WE NOT, U TOLD ME ONCE BUT I FORGOT,

SO TEL ME NOW AND TELL ME TRUE, SO I CAN SAY IM HERE FOR YOU,

OF ALL DA PEOPLE THAT I HAVE MET, YOUR THE ONES I WONT FORGET,

AND IF I DIE BEFORE YOU DO, I'LL GO TO HEAVEN AND WAIT FOR U,

SO STAY MY FREN, N ALWAYS DO, SO I CAN SAY THX 2 U,

OUR FRENSHIP MUZ START, CZ U ALL WILL ALYWAYS B IN MY HEART!!! <3

dedicated to the ones in my heart..my friends..^^

READ IT AND WEEP..signing out=P

aiyoyo..

helo helo blog blog!!!

wel..update life again...sori so long dun write...me very da malas...=P paiseh...will try to write more..=)

wel..da macha's...da so called big indian group of boys in me skul...i reli reli get damn annoyed with dem..haizz. they keep buggin my fren sharmila....as her fren..i reli feel so hurt to see stuff happen to her.=( they do stuff tat are seriously rude and mean. i feel like giving them a tight slap and tellin them how hurtful they are!

so on thurs or wed..im nt sure..we had to hantar our boooks back. so helped out me teacher..and went down. so sharmila n i, along with kishini tanussha and yeeeting sat down 2 rest.. and to my horrow...here came da annoying guys i love to hate..T.T so da so call leader of da gang..whose name i malas to mention.. sat beside sharmila, and grabbed da purse my sis gave her as a bday present..and her money. i got so damn pissed seriously. i was like wat da hell? and dey are total pervs...reli reli..dey reli dare to touch you..even if u are a girl. sometimess..girlschool x seem tat bad..any hu..sharmila tried to fight back n grab her stuff. typical her. n da ass**** leader splashed water on her. that reli pissed me off..i wanted to slap em so bad!

lucky kevin was here...so he asked me to get upstairs wif sharmila b4 dey do worst.. she ran up. but she wanted her money...she should just stop chilling and take care of herself laaa..stuborn..wat cn we do.? so anyways..kevin bein sweet offered to pay back wat the macha's did. so sweet.. so rashvin ask me to wait..cz dey will give the money bak. so i stood on da teacher's office level and w8 wif kevin..

i looked at rashvin...de turned too another direction..and saw dev!! he was waving with his usual smile..kevin asked em to come up..i was tryin to tell em abt da macha's..but he x hear. hahah. so hel ran up. so he asked wassup? so i told em da whole frustratin story. n he asked me to follow em go k class. at da same tym sharmila came down. so dev say jz cum wif em. kevin said no..cz da macha's r dangerous..bt dev x care and he led me down da stairs.. i walked bhind sharmila..hoping they would stop. but once dey reach da pondok bacaan..dey gave her bak money..but wen she took it..dey x let go..she got scared and bent down..(which i tink made it worst..but hey she was scared)..dev grabbed me and said: cn u jz gt out of there n cum? i grabbed sharmila..n she took a separate ways..dev jz held my shoulder and brought me along..he told sharmila to go to keith nw. lucky he was der!! so sharmila told keith da whole story. i turned around n realise dev wen up..=(

den norma came down ans scolded us..so we had to go class.. well.. da next day, we talked to my beloved teacher seyamala...she gave us great advice..i reli reli was so thnkful to her..god bless her..an awesome teacher..

well..that momment wen dev was der...he really seemed like he knew what he was doing. he seemed so cool and calm. i felt so safe when he was theere. like a spark of my hero..cheezy..but yea..its reli true..i felt so warm n lucky to have em der. and tinkin nw...i tink he x scared cz he has a black bellt in karate or taekondo? hahha.. he rocks. i dunno hv to thnk em la. he x mind..but i reli do. i owe him one..=)

well..days are normal. we play games like crazy! it was soooo dammmnnnn funnnn!! ahaha...luv my frens la.. annd at night..kal told me dey wen jj x me..n apologized. well..im reli nt mad at her at all.. but i felt ditched laa. im used to it.. n im nt blaming her at all. haiz..feelin alone sad depress and left out..dunno who my frens are anymore la..

thnkful to da ones who are here..jealously taking over me..and im reli scared to get close to my frens lately...cz..i tink once i gt too close...n dey jz suddenly leave..n go so far..n i just gt hurt..haizz..i have no comments..

read it and weep signin out..(emo..zzz)

to realize the value of time..

to realise the value of one year,

ask a studdent who has failed a final exam,

to realise the value of one month,

ask a mother who has given birth to a premature baby,

to realise the value of one week,

ask an editor of a weekly newspaper,

to realise the value of one hour,

ask the lovers who are waiting to meet,

to realise the value of one minute,

ask the person who has missed the train or bus,

to realise the value of one second,

ask a person who has just survived an accident,

time waits for no one,

treasure everymomment you have...

remember..

yesterday is history,

tommorow is a mystery,

today is a gift,

that's why it is called the present

mooncake festival=)

hihi bloggie!!! =D

well mooncake festival was yesterday..a celebration of chinese culture involving mooncake eating and lantern carrying..and night wen streets are filled with children with their beloved lanterns..lighting the streets with fun and laughter.=)

i have never played lantern for 4 years..i miss it..it was one of my fav days of the year as a child. well, on friday night..2nd oct..school finished and i hopped home as jeremy and joelle walked me out to my car. they are such great frens..=) i ate up..and called up daddy. he was coming late..== usual. so i called everyone 2 make sure they were going with me. and naresha said everyone was coming but zhen tk reply her. called em and he said he x cum. haiizz. well. da fun must go on!! i packed my lanterns..felt childish..cz we had cartoons on our lanterns. hahaha.

went to prakkash house and saw keith and ryan! haha. said hi and called up kesh n kong to ask where they were, they said they were'nt coming. and tat made me very very sad. haiz. we hopped on out and started our lantern walk. i had 6 lanterns with me and two boxes of candles. and also a lighter da shape of a ball. hahaha. keith and ryan actually wanted to join!! so keith took da ultraman lantern and ryan took another doraemon one like prakkash. naresha got pikaciu and sharmila gt hello kitty. and my blue lantern was mashi maro!! weee!^^ we started walkin den naresha got a phone call, it was keshen!! he said he was here! we turned around and there they were...kong and keshen. keith passed his lantern to kong and ryan passed his to kesh.

so we continued to walk. we passed philip's house and i told kong why don't we ajak phil too? so he called em up and he said ok. we told da others to go 1st. kong and keshen teman me outside phil's house. he came out and my lantern fell down. malu much? hahah. we talked for a while and decided to walk up da hill to meet up with the others.

da four of us cracked so many jokes along the way. it was so fun. though i was da oni gal there..da guys made me feel comfortable..=)..so we passed this big house which was like damn big and nice. we sat down to rest. phil kept insisting i buy tat house sumday. hahah. we continue walkin up..and boy did it get dark!!! we passed to clives den we were almost to da peak and we saw da others sitting by da mountain sidde. oh my god! da view was amazing! we sat down and enjoyed da view while ryan keith and prakkash threw mercun everywhere. haha. da hill was steep..phil and keshen keep joking about fallin over. it was awesome.

our lanterns was already blown out! malas to light again la. den phil and keshen started askin whose taller..haha..it was so funi..tiptoe-in to increasing there height..hhaha... keith and ryan had 2 go, so we said goodbye and continued our trip. we cont uphill. we pass by this house which had chairs and giant mushrooms outside. we all sat down and got a group shot. it was damn nice. we rested and joked more. afther 15 mins, we decided to go bak down. on the way kesh lost his earphone cover thingy..haha..our whole gang bend over to help and finally we got it! but he dropped it again! finally sharmila found it and we went down. it was so funny la.

we sent philip home and thanked him for coming. it was amazing..and he made it better! thnk phil! and so we went to prakkash house and rested. naresha n sharmila went home. which left me da only gal again. ==haha. da guys were damn tired and fell asleep. haha. poor things. my dad came and i went home.

BOY I HAD FUN!!! thanks for all those who came!! happy mooncake festival again!! ^^

read it and weep signing out! =)

boring laaa...=P

here i am..again..siting here..in front of my comp..hahah..bored..as usual...darnnnn...

well update update! yesterday..we celebrated my dad's bday! we had a blast. we rented out a room with a tv and karoake sistem. we were singing our hearts out. hangin out with family seriously makes a smile appear on my face. esp my clowny father!! hahah. my cousinf frm L.A. came down 2 visit. alana and greg. along with my aunty munmun and uncle alan. well, through the months...my uncle danny has been speacially made a video for my daddy. entitled.."portrait of a joker" hahah....suitable for him. we laughed alot throughout the video as it is really really funny. esp during da bday wishes. i was the camera girl tat day, haddling my uncle's camera. i felt like a pro...ahahha..so i just snap shots of my family and da kids running arnd and stuff. well, during da video, i wanted 2 get sum gud shots of dad. so i zoomed in. and guess what? i saw tears in his eyes...that hit me! a tear rolled down my face...i felt so touched. haaiiizz...i hope my daddy is fine and hapi always.=) so we revealed da fantastic cake my mum bought. it was a football...which was really really awesome!!. hahah...we headed back to my house and chillaxed..ahaha..wel..everyone left at 12.30...kinda late for da kids i must say..hehe. and you know what? i had sooo much fun..but i din bring my camera! =( omg! i sux wei...haizz.. but no matter wat,,these memories will always remain in my heart. happy birthday again daddy!!

hmm..on friday we had a holiday. so keshen said we were goin 2 makan at tiam fatt da day before. so i set an alarn clock at 9 am. checked my phone..ntg. 10..ntg. 10.30..still ntg! so i text em. tk reply...call em..din answer!!.getting on my nerves!! so he replied da msg and said we cant go. den i was like wth? haha. den kong rang me up and said they were goin now! den i was like: wow..i just woke up..hahaa. lucky i was dressed! so i told my nanny and she said we had 2 walk there. ==..perfect..so grabbed my bad and walked. i was almost der wen the skul was almost visible. saw some figures there. i saw prakkash 1st. den he yelled! ok...definately prakkash. hahah. saw joelle there. thank god!! i x da oni gal. haha. zhen kesh kong and prem joined us..and we were off. so we found a spot and sat down. ordered our drinks and just talked. haha. da guys talked about stuff me and joelle had no idea abt. hahah. den prakkash started being retarded. as usual.=) he said..:' ok..i see ok..i see oni 6 people here.." den he pointed at everyone one by one. "you..you..you..he skipped me..you you and you!" den he said hi 2 everyone. and not 2 me. hahah. den he grabbed all da guys over and whispered in their ear stg. i looked at joelle. and we said..: he's playin.." i gt a text frm kong sayin he's jkin, hahah..too bad prakkash!! then they were talkin very softly. then suddenly..all of them looked at me at the same time!! ahahaha ...they look so funny!! so joelle lend my phone 2 play. da LG one. then bubu and kkb keep callin me! wth? hahah. so i called backk. lame...as usual. den joelle and i said we should miss call prem. haha. so we did. he was acting so over wei. askin : who da hell is this person kong? i lukked at kong and gave em da look nt 2 tell. den i just ask prem..letme see..maybe i noe..i luked at da number..hiding my laugh. haha. so den he ask prakkash zhen and bubu. and all of them started laughin like crap!! hahahaha...it was so funny. prem looked so blur. kesian em. den zhen said : eh ping..its tat person right? kong just laughed and said yes. prem was getting pissed off. he kept sayin it was joelle. hahah.so we paid and decided to ciao. den prakkash say he wanted 2 buy stg random like kayar. hah. so we waited at the bicycle shop. zhen came over. so kong asked em wer's prakkash and prem. den hee said luk 4 urself. suddenly we heard " bang bang bang" haha.

we looked back. and saw them playin with those tiny guns tat shoot out bullets of smoke? hahah. they were sooo childish shooting everywer. ahahahhaha. but they sure made me laugh! and den prakkash said they cn play mafia wars with it..hahah..funi la he. we went our separate ways and went home. i had fun..thx u keshen!!! it was really awesome..i miss this times..it was unforgetable.=)

well that's all for now. read it and weep signin off..^^

update with my life..

helo helo...my lovely smilley bloggie..

well...sori i didnt update so long..but as if anyone reads my blog...ahhhahahahah... who cares..as long as i can let out my feelins somewer..im hapi.. why so many people dun update blog oso ar? haiyoyo kecewanya aku..haha..

hmm..well two days ago..i was really hyper and hapi..chatin off with my frens in msn n fb..haha..then my dad asked me to go off...as usual..so i said bye to my frens..and logged off..it was 12.30..i really couldnt sleep at all..i really cant sleep at all these days..i guess i have alot in my mind..i really need to talk to someone..my mood swings are driving me nuts..suddenly im sad..den im hapi..its pissing alot of ppl off..including myself..haiizzz..

anyways..continue..so..i got outside my room..and decided to sleep on the couch..suddenly my phone vibrated..it was kong..hahah..he seriously is a great pet bro..he's always nice and kind..we text till 2.30am...hahah..i was bored..and i lyk smsin kong..i duno why..wether im emo..or hapi..hvin him der..jz makes me smiile..and feel safe..

haha..i admit...i was jealous of a certain people..and tat made me emo all da time..but lately..i get to sit down and think..why do i gt jealous? its just so wrong..its my fault..and i started thinking clear about it..and i decided just to be more positive and just ignore it...i even gt to think clear about alot of other things..i always thought people...my frens..are all distaning frm me..and im nt tat close..but..i gt it off..and tried to be optimistic..and it did.

but..i just jinx it..and now..im emo again..haaiiizz..i dun care la..i just want 2 try my best to smile..like kong said..he's happier seeing me hapi...im sure other people are happier oso..but..i do it too over la..now..im just being annOying..haiizzz..im really sori.

i tink yea..i am annoying...and i always say sori..but i do ntg abt it..i just make it worst..trying to turn tat into stg positive..hope i can..haiizz..i just miss last year..so much..da photo wars..kklub..just hanging out with my frens..it was so awesome..but..i noe..i hv to let go of the past..and move on with my life..those memories..will jz remain in my mind..

uploaded a few pics onto facebook tat i drew..i felt so hapi..people commenting..just so hyper..people are so sweet la..and..l8tely..its raining alot..and i mean alot..but..the skies are clearing..and its soo beautiful..nature is just so amazing..i got so many pics of da sky..i remember..yesterday, while i was waiting for daa uncle to bring me home..i was at da bball court..with joelle..hahah..so she lied down on her bag..and she luked up 2 da sky..den she yank my shirt and ask me 2 lay down. i put my bad behind my head and did so..i luked up..and wat did i see? da most magnificent thing ever..the sky was so clear...only a few streaks of clouds in the sky..it was so peaceful..lying there...but den..i was kacau-ed by joelle..hahaha...we got up and took a few pics..it was awesome..

life is so weird lately..i've been called annoying..i hurt people..and den..its da opposite? like..saying im a great fren..and i help them..aaarrggh..i gues i got answer 2 my ques..da thg causing alll da problems im facing in my life..is actually..me..myself..=(

yea..they are right..all i noe 2 do is cry cry cry...sori sori sori..but i dont solve anythg.i really understand wat they mean by tat now..

gosh..im sounding emo again..haaa...im confused..i really need someone 2 talk to now..knowin i will just cause pain again..i rather nt..people..whoever is reading this..(i dun tink anyone is)..im sori 4 beiing annoying..n sayin sori all da time..bt tats me..im like tat..just hope u cn forgive me..for all da things i have done to hurt u..if there's anyway i cn make it up to u..tellme..and i will try my best to change..

thats all for now..

read it and weep..signin out!

my frens are awesome..

hihi bloggie!!! watsup?!?!=D

haaa....2day was so fun. carmen came over 2 my houz. she reacher at abt 11.30 sharp. haha..like i told her to. such a gud gal. ;) well, she passed me her pendrive...to show me marcus' song. and wooo...he's gud. not bad la. for a guy. haha.

carmen was so retarded..here i was..chatin wif my frens..and she cums and type crap 2 phil and prakkash..ahahahhahhaha...i couldnt stop laughin.. prakkash even called her sexy alien...hhahaahahh...he remembered. itt was soooo fun! started typing stuff like: snhoshoifhbovi...and..kfpisidb...phil actuali believe me wen i said tat was his name in french. hahah. my candy boy. :)

den we got into da car and wen to pavi. we lunched at "iciban boshi" taaadaaa!!!!!!!!!!!! lol. i ate like a pig as usual...=P...my orange juice was so sour. carmen's lime juice almost made me die. it was so damn freakin sour wei..hahhah. my face luk lyk tis...>,<...haha.

afta tat...went for shoppin. walkin around...we entered miss wateva and made sum keychains for each other. it was pretty. da price lagi pretty...gues hw much...rm99.67..xD..i tink i was gona die wei. hahah. but for my bff's its worth it. i dun mind.

walked around in times book shop..and talked about skul. i miss carmen sooo much. it was so nice to get to see her again. haha!! just being able to see her face since march..i really needed to treasure each counting momment with her.

haiz...it was getin late..and we needed to head home. i got into da car,,,and it started to rain!! haha. carmen's mum rang me and said they were outside my house.but we were oni half way home. so my mum decided 2 fetch carmen home. in da car..we talked and laugh soooo hard. it was just so enjoyable. =)

well..we arrived at setapak..and her houz was cumin near. i missed her so much..and da day just flew by. haiz. i quickly hugged her and said bye. gosh...seeing her walk out of tat door..a tear rolled down my face..but..i hope to see her again.

i wished chui yin came today. she would be da oni way 2 make 2day better. it was awesome. i really had so many flashbacks...of primary momments...my 2 bff's. i luv them so much. i reli hope they will stay hapi..and safe. hope to see dem soon...very soon. keeping my fingers crossed. hehe.^^

tats all for now..tc..( miss my frens) T.T

read it and weep signin out..

LIFE..

Life....i guess...there's different ways of describing it..uncountable ways...haha....:)
i was born on 18th feb 1995. went to CEC kindergarden. best years of my childhood. my 1st day of kindy..haha..i cried none stop. malu much? i loved my kindergarden, da swimming pool, da summercamp..computer class...it was greeat! wen i was six..i joined da skul band.and i played the triangle.hahah. my final concert was amazing. haaaaa^^ i didnt know so many ppl were in da same kindy wif me. keshen, aliff, nick, and dev 2. hahah. small world..small world. i rmbr wen i was 4...i used 2 cut my hair..to get attention..i noe..im weird..hahaha...
nw 7..i went to sjk(c) chong hwa..taadaa..went 2 1c. best class. everyone was so frenly, it wasnt hard 2 make frens. im lucky my sis is in tat skul. i loved the canteen in tat skul. it was like food paradise. they have EVERYTHING! std 3..met carmen ng, selina lian, lee jia hui, lim li vian, tang chui yin and lau jia cherng. my best frens. love them all. std 4 was no different. fun and more fun. i remember there was one time wen we were all so crazy wif da show X-men evolution. haha. and martin mystery. all nuts over it. i wana 2 be shadow cat! hahah. std 5, i had 2 leave my class..haiz...grades fell. went 2 5p. da people der were very nice. i made frens very fast. wel..still kept close 2 my bff's lyk chui yin carmen n jia hui. always rehat together. we had our "own" spot 2 sit. lol. std 6...aaahh yes. changes started. i fought wif my fren jia hui and livian. haizzz...it last for 6 months. we didnt talk at all. i missed them so much. but b4 da year ended, jia hui apologize and we were fine. graduation came along, practise hard for our performance. and had a blast at da concert. laz day of skul was sad, i cried so hard. i missed my frens...i hugged them all and told dem to take care. with one bow...its official...i graduated...:) classes i went to..1c, 2u, 3m, 4k, 5p, 6p. got to wear every pjk baju colour. red blue yellow and green. haha. lucky me.
durin da hols tat year...my skul had a skul trip 2 singapore. it was awesome. i had so much fun. it was da 1st tym i got 2 feel independant. i had 2 wake up everyday n boil da water 4 me and my roomates. i even made milo and cereal. haha. feel like a mum. but sum how, i kept on wakin up damn early. 4 am!! i gues i was just cold or nervous. took many pics for memories. da last day of da trip was at tis palace. haa..den we went 2 makan and wen 2 a candy store. it was awesome. haha. sat in da bus, sang songs. when we reached skul, we said our gudbyes 2 techers principal, and our frens. i will mis tis wonderful skul tat brought me so much joy. sjkc chong hwa..an amazing skul which brought me countless memories tat i will nvr forget.^^
well, noe..im currently goin 2 smktm. haha. rockin skul. b4 tat. went 2 another skul smk zon r 1. met tons of new frens. it was great. spend abt a month der. in da class 1 rajin. my god brother was in tat skul, he made it easier for me there. :) i remember my laz day in tat skul..my frens wan yee, pei xuan, and li wei brought me 2 da padang and we played like hell. it was so fun. ahahah. miss dem so much. oso...one of da closest frens i made der. low chia yin. she was an awesome fren. miss her la..
afta dat, 1st feb, friday, i went 2 smktm. i was nervous. my sis brought me and we went 2 sign up. da woman almost sent me 2 1k. bt, den she changed her mind. haiz. i gues sum thgs were meant 2 be. went 2 my class..it was moral class. my sis intro me 2 leesha. well, joelle, i really gt 2 thnk her. she was so warm and caring. she accepted me as a fren so quickly. yeeting 2. i rmbr, we always walk around da skul during rehat.talkin...both of them we tellin me abt da skul and da ppl in iit. fun fun. den i mixed with hemah's gang. it was interestin. still i stuck close 2 yeeting.
den joelle intro me 2 kesh and nigel. dey were so nice. afta a long time. dey used 2 ejek me lyk hell. but nw we're tight. sat wif sharmila on da 1st day. she intro me 2 naresha. den slowly...ppl jz came along. dev..steppie..tommy..den prakkash. and from dem i met many more, kong, sharlene, ruth, song shin, and much much more.
last year was so awesome. i had so much fun. during da hols, i would always go hang at prakkash's house 2 lepak. wif my so call gang-sharmila, naresha, keshen, prakkash and kong. we usually wen 2 kklub. chill der. it was just very enjoyable. i miss those momments so much. =(
2009 started. and i met even more frens. it was great. new students came, michelle and wong! haha...they sure changed much in my life. bt life is filled with changes. tsu ning left. miss her alot. jz recently we had another new gal..anndrea. haha, she's great. :) a new guy joined our gang. ooi jin chern. he fit in perfectly. ahahah. he is such an awesome fren. we went out, all of her, in a gang. it was great. lepakin at da padang..haa..it made me smile.^^
now...lately..things are changin...gud and bad...haiz. i just wished i can turn back time...to all da gud times. i gues i cant do anything. i miss da old times so much. haiz. but life is filled with changes..i hope things will turn out right. haha. i love all my frens. i hope no matter when and how they are? i hope they are doin well! god bless them all. :)

that's all for now. (read it and weep signin out)>,<

bored........

hihi bloggie!
well, nothing much has been going on in school, kinda boring these days. feel so annoyed with life la lately. hmm...so...jz talk abt stuff tat have been happening lately.
15 aug-i went 2 mtv world stage. it was freakin awesome! went with nigel, feel so hapi and lucky to be able 2 attend this special event. nigel u rock! haha. had a blast jumping around like a mad person with sharmila n my sis. martin from boys like gals b4 singing thunder aka best momment of all. it started 2 rain, so he said: i feel a rain cumin on, all it needs is some....thunder..' omg...it was like awesome wei! den afta da concert, we played with a jukebox at a cafe, it was so funi. we were simply pressing numbers and we gave up, so we walked off...suddenly:" my lips like sugar.." lol...da song sugar played. it was so damn funi wei. we 3 paused and turned arnd together. ahahaha..
well...in skul...fight with people. get back with people. its weird la...i guess i always have 2 fight with ppl. tis momment in life...i really feel da pressure rising between frenships..haiz...duno la.. if they wana fight...leet them la. all i cn do is just stand here.. and face the music.
i tink that hurtin other ppl is da wronf thing 2 do..but..i gues..haizzz...nvm...
i just hope things would turn out right...prayin for it.
thats all...for now...dad...lol..
bye.

my class is retarded..

~ 2H ~

haaaa....2day...damn funi la. da macha's ejek sharmila like hell wei. i think 1 of them like sharmila. i really do. whereever she go, some1 wil say : eee bleuk, socks! hahahah. scary la. like stalker. they actuali followed her and use their hand and block her wei. lucky she call out naresha name and when she came, dey all let go of sharmila. worried la, i hope 2day, she was ok. :)hmm...yea lo, normal day lo. ntg special. but we got to talk 2 keshen alot. we spend time talking and asking each other abt each other. i know...we're all lame. haha. den keshen ask me whats his laz name, me and sharmila was like: uuh, carissa. u ask la, dun layan kesh. hahahah. kesian em. i conteng bubu's hand. hahah. i write bubu oni. den he ask me add more. so i conteng lyk hell. hah. padan muke. :P we talked about u 2. haha. everyone la. zhen, prakkash, naresha.den we talk about ong, we laugh like shit wei. that was damn funi! you oso know right hee very shy with gals. so my fren, syamim, she tk tahan. cuz he always luk away when she say hi. so tham n ravern ask me and sharmila 2 say hi. but he still tk jawab! so, tham said:"hey lets ask elliza go flirt wif him.." btw, eliza very gila gal in my glas. so we went 2 elliza and ask her. she was laughin. so we went 2 sit down. den ravern said: elliza, now!!elliza got up, she walk over to ong. like damn flirty wei. we laughin lyk hell ady. den she sat on ong's table, she fold her leg lyk tryin 2 luk sexy.. we all laughin till gona pee! goh even fell of da chair laughin!!! den she go touch em and was lyk: 'hiiiiii oonnnnggg!" and guess wat? he still luk away!!! omg!. we all were like...that proves it...he is gay. ahahahahahahhaha. XDden lagi worst. tham!!! taadaaa. go act lyk gal, and sat on ong lap. den he face his butt and em and lyk, hey baby! u so sexy. we laugh lyk shit wei.!! den ravern go pull his pants up 2 show his sexy legs. hahahahaha!!!!!!. im tink i was gona die wei! haha..my class rocks la. 2 harmoni rocks!!! ^^

missing da good times..

you know wat? haizz...i really miss da old times i had.. bad or gud..i still miss them all..

last year..hanging out with salina hemah da twins..and yeeting. i used to be damn close to her..esp. her. and now..i don't even rehat with her animore. it hurts me to see her everytime. i do miss her alot..and i know i have hurt her badly..but all i can do now is just try to make her happy wenever i can. hope it works..she even wrote poems about me..looking at those words..it really made me cry..i feel so bad..i hope i can make it up to her..

last year was da best...when all of us were in one block. it was so much easier to hang with my gang. now i have to walk over to another block..and hide from norliah.. haiz. everytime solat..i just had to walk over to da opposite side and find kong and prakkash and nareshaa. now..its just like, we were all meant to be apart..

laz year we all used to lepak at kklub and prakkash's house. we were all so close. we never separated and stuck together. this year..things started changing. we had a new person in our gang..ooi jin chern. we weren't tat close last year cause he and prakkash gt probs. but now dey are like bros. damn close. that i didnt mind at all. then we got a new student..michelle..who changed many lives..den ppl in our gang started fallin for each other..ok...still can tahan..

used to be freaking close to keshen...now..he's closer to da guys...wel..cant blame em. den prakkash too..cant blame em either. got damn close to zhen zhen. he was so sweet. i remembered he always ejek me. like one time..i told em i rock! den he said: i dun fully agree wif u on tat. u are a rock..bt u dun rock..get it? he is just so random. he was great in our gang. making us all hapi. kong too..he stayed da same. lucky me! ^^

during the mid year..things started to change...worse and worst! i wasnt tat close to nigel anymore. but at least he still tells me secrets. and once i fought with kong. i cant blame em..i was so emo and rude. he's a great pal, and he forgave me..but after that, i fought with zhen. it seems like no matter what i do..i will have to lose somebody.. i started being negative again. i cried more often. its hard..cause..sometimes when you are so close to someone...and sudenli den jz go so far away from you..its really painful for me..i rememberd about a month ago..i had an emotional meltdown. i cried for an hour and a half none stop. i just couldnt stop..da pain was so sharp. my heart was breaking..

and now..im not tat close to joelle..im changing into a monster! talkin about other people..not being as nice as i was b4. i feel so selfish! i just miss hanging out in a gang again. no pain..just hapiness and laughter.

last friday..we got to go to prakkash house to hang out. 6 of us. like dy old times. it was so fun. i dun tink i ever laugh tat much b4. kesh and sharmila was so lame.:P but damn funi. i loved that momment so much..i wish i could go through it again.. though zhen wasn't there..it was fun^^

i miss zhen sooo much. i mis joelle too. everyone!!! including da old me. where have all these people gone too. everyone luks da same..but they are like strangers to me now.. giving me da cold shoulder..i hate that so much.

life seems so empty now...i try to fill it up..but ppl keep making da hapiness flow out again n again. i feel like giving up. i noe i have to accept da fact that i cant keep all my frens wif me. but i wish i could. i really miss them all so much..i miss you all..please come back:(

that's all for now..bye.

i wrote tis cause im hyper and bored...

hihi my magnificent bloggie! ^^ im just sooo hyper right now..haha. so im damn bored...sitting in da living room. and here comees kong woon ping..asking me to write a blog. so...ok. haha. im so lame. keshen is right... 0.o lol...

well...today was a not so normal school day. couldnt wake up! was busy chattin wif kong and phil laz night till 3am! haha. both of them are so damn funi. phil so innocent la..but i cant believe he touch kal's .... ahahahaha. well...he oni n"luks" innocent. eggy tan....hehe. kong was so retarded wei...making me laugh! and if he is reading this..KONG WOON PING..IF YOU EVER CALL ME KLIA AGAIN..I WIL SLAP YOU! hahaha.

well..back to today...i woke up at my nani's house and started doin my english project. omg...almost died rushing to finish it. well..i like anime so...who can blame me. ^^ looked at my watch..12.30!!! tick tock tick tock..time was running out. went 2 bath and ran to school. luckily i got there in time. phewww.....came down and saw shaarmila and naresha. my hair was in a mess...haiyoyo..=.=''

my watch was moving....time was tickin. one by one my frens came. then kong came...i ran to him...and he ran away...lol. then i saw philip. we laughed and talked about yesterday's chat. it was so awesome la..and when jo-l ask to me teman her...i ask her pull me...and i fell on MY BUTT!! boohoo! T.T though i was still laughing like crazy. haha.

hopped over to class and sat with nigel and prem. we talked about life and how much we miss da old times. especially me!!!

then recess. me and phil went to annoy kong for rm50 like he promised, but da dummy saying oni sweet wrappers. but in da end he gave me and sharmila rm3 2 buy sweets. after taking my share..i gave philip da rest. he was sooo cute la. den naresha came by...suddenly kong pulled phil to aside and started burst out laughin! i was lyk???... den naresha told me it was her clip...a butterfly. i started laughin. den i was lyk:" wat about da one in ur..." i pointed at her singlet. kong and phil laughed even more. naressha and i x stop laughin. its so fun la with my frens ;)

when back to class. started singing so retarded stuff. doing funi actions along withh the songs. so hyper la with sharmila. suddenly tommy's class came to my block. i was like...yay...can kacau them! after maths..i went down to sains class. put my bag down and waited for S class to come down. finally they did!!! me, sharmila, elaine, and stephanie went to kacau kong. haha. he was soo perverted! and again...KLIA =,=''...

went in sains and did experiment about air pressure. tham and keshen was soo funi spilling da water again...and again..and again. hahah. then me nick keshen and aliff started talking abt our kindergarden..CEC. i din noe soo many ppl were from tat school. talkin abt tat reallt reminded me about my childhood..:)

after that..got out of class and went to da court. talk talk talk..hugs den kong walked me and ruth out. thx kong! ^^ lol. and my day ended..kinda..

went home..eat...did h/w and now im writing tis blog... hahah.

thats all for now..

BYEEEZZZ >.<

tell me why?

tell me why i cant be happy anymore?

all thats's happening is making my heart pain and sore!

is this what im supose to go through till i graduate?

im trying to stop it, but it's just too late..

tell me why things can't ever go the way i want?
trying to stop crying, but i just can't,

we all use to hang out so often,

but out friendships have crashed and burn..

tell me why we are fighting?

the pain is so piercing, like the birght lightning..

is it me or them am i to blame,

i guess i must accept that things can never be the same..

tell me why this all happened to all of us?

is the pain i mention in the first verse..

im feeling so frustrated and sad..

why did things have to turn out that bad?

tell me why am i even writing this down?

my friends are not talking, there's not a single sound..

i can't stand it, im want to be free,

but the only option is for me to leave..

tell me why? must this happen again?

life seems so meaningless these days..

is it even worth living?

i dont know what to think anymore...

END>>>

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well...does time fly...

it really does. half a school year is gone...that means im half a year older! ^^ lol.

well...alot has changed since the begining of tis year (2009)..that's for sure..

i earned new frens...and lost some.. well...i cant do anything about it...life is filled with changes..i cant change da way it rolls..

the begining of this year..life was easier..much much more eazier.. but lately, everything i worked for..seems to be falling apart, frenships...im lossing so many people lately i cant stand da pain. i know life for meant 2 b filled with changes..bt does tat mean i really have 2 lose my frens.

fighting with them for a stupid reason, not talkin cause of ego, its just a foolish thing to do..

looking through tis pics..really makes me miss so many people in my life... i hope i could go back to tis happy times...i hope..really hope..that everyone can live happily..

i miss you all...alot...please come back...i dun wana lose any of you.. thats all i ask for..is for you all to stay together..

as long as you all are happy...so am i..so stay happy..:)

~read it and weep signin out~

alone..

silence spreads around the room,

the crowd is hushed,

nothing is heard,

emptyness..

the gentle wind touches my skin,

the gentle slowly becomes rough,

thunder is heard,

lightning is seen..

and with a flash of light,

everything was gone,

i was alone,

just standing there,

all by myself..

i knew i was afraid,

of being alone,

but i found something,

i finally found peace..

i looked up and saw another light,

i could hear angels singing,

i was as light as a cloud,

i was in a paradise, an escape..

there i was, so happy and smiling,

but it all came to an end,

when i saw my perfect world falling,

it seems like wherever i am,

i bring sadness along with me,

im a destroyer of hapiness..

with a blink of an eye,

i was back on earth,

my friends were there once again,

laughing, jokingm playing, just being themselves,

i look at them with a smile,

though i was only dreaming,

im glad to be here, now, with them..

thank you for being here..

all of you..

i love u guys :)

read and think about it...

1. I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you.
我愛你不是因為你是誰，而是我在你面前可以是誰。
2. No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry.
沒有男人或女人是值得你為他流眼淚，值得的那一位，不會要你哭。

3. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

那人不是你所想般愛你，但不代表那人不是全心全意地愛你。

4. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart.

一個真正的朋友是向著你伸手，觸動你心靈的人。

5. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them.

掛念一個人最差的方式，就是你坐在他身旁，而知道你不能擁有他。

6. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.

就算你不快樂也不要皺眉，因為你永不知道誰會愛上你的笑容。

7. To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.

在世界裡你可能只是某人，但對某人你可能是全世界。

8. Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't willing to waste their time on you.

不要花時間在一個不會花時間在你身上的人。

9. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.可能神要我們在遇到那位對的人之前先遇上一些錯的人，讓我們遇到那位對先生/對小姐時懂得珍惜。

10. Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened.

不要因為完結而哭，要為曾經發生而微笑。

11. There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more careful about who you trust next time around.

這個世界永遠也會有一些傷害你的人，你要做的就是繼續去信人和小心你下次信的人。

12. Make yourself a better person and know who you are before you try and know someone else and expect them to know you.

在你嘗試了解其他人和盼望其他人明白你之前，先把你自己變成一個更好的人和了解你自己。
13. Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to.

不要太努力去找，最好的東西是在你最預計不到的時候出現。
REMEMBER: WHATEVER HAPPENS, HAPPENS FOR A REASON.

緊記: 所有事也是因果循環的。

something i wrote...

i wrote tis poem? song? or just words from my heart today...

The Inside

emptyness fills my soul,

im alone, i feel so cold,

i stand by a side,

trying my best to hide,

im feeling scared and down,

my mind keeps spinning round and round,

everything is quiet,

i cant hear a sound,

im afraid,

its too late for me to apologise,

i use to have hope and faith by my side,

but now i know i was wrong,

we all never did get along,

its time, for me to leave..

im looking at them,

they're lookin at me,

but cant they see that im in pain?

all i can do is do my crying in the rain..

i cant stand it any longer,

they're just making me cry and sobber,

i heard something cracking,

my heart was aching,

its shatters to pieces,

never wil it, mend again..

i try to pick up the pieces,

but my mind keeps on flashing these faces,

they make me laugh and cry,

the end has come passing by,

its time for me to leave and say goodbye,

i will go back and try to get some sleep tonight,

i know that i have lost the fight,

the battle was hard, i tried my best,

but i guess that wasnt enough,

and i now i see,

the enemy was actualli the other side of me..

and when im gone,

a new era will be born..

i realised...

im finally free...

read it and weep signin out

kong woon ping, ooi jin chern

well, since im so bored these days, i just wanted to take off some time to talk about some off my frens.. kong woon ping and ooi jin chern. oso known as kkb n sherng ong bak! lol!

these to are one of my closest buddies!

kong woon ping(left) and prakkash(right)

lets talk about kong first. wel, he is my pet bro. bday on da 14 feb. he says he's lying about tat, but im not sure when is his bday now. lol. he is a really caring bro. and he likes blue like me!!! anyways, he helps me every time im in trouble. whenever im sad or depressed, i can always count on him. his like a shoulder for me to cry on, you noe? words to describe kong is alot. emo, retarded, funi, caring, blur, act macam gangster and alot more. but he is really a great guy. but i get veri annoyed with him sumtyms cuz he always says "i duno" to everything! lol. he might be a hot head sometimes, but i can see he means well. he scolds his frens, but i noe he does it for their own good. he gives me advice and made me a stronger person. kong woon ping, a guy with a heart...

ooi jin chern(left) and prakkash(right)

now, lets talk about mr ooi jin chern. haha. sherng ong bak! tat name was made by me n teera. lol. zhen, he's a really special guy. nvr seen sum1 tat is like him. he likes reading romance novels, he understands girls. he's really cute la. he's a very very caring fren. he is one of my poking buddies. a really interesting guy. describe him? wel, funi, retard, caring, special, dota freak, and more! he understands me. when i talk to him on the phone, i can actually let everything out. and he listens. and makes me hapi. haha. there's a lot of things i can toke about jin chern. a book perhaps. haha. textin him is very fun. he's really creative. and realy random sumtyms. he made me a happier person, and mademe learn tat life isnt useless. ooi jin chern, a caring and warm guy.


these two guys reallyh taught me alot of things about myself. and i really would like to thank them. i love these two! you guys rock!!!! ^^


Blu3 @nGeL signin out

LOVE:)

love..wat is it? reali? if u ask anyone on the street, u mite get totally diff answers from every1. wat is da definition of love? well, the meanin of luv depends on the person itself. everyone has a different way of lookin at things.

love--a strong feelin of deep affection for somebody or something. or a strong feelin of affection for somebody tat u are phisically attrated to. it could be ur family, ur frens, or even a hobby u like a lot. for example, a mother's love for her child, two people fallin in love, etc.etc.

to me, i tink love is truly a gift, a wonderful one, from God. He wans us to learn to love and appreciate da ones around us. He wans us to feel how bein love feels like. we should b lucky n blessed to be able to feel tis wonderful feelin called, love.

as a child or a baby, we have been loved by our parents, dey watched over us, raised us, and practically made us who we are today, if it wasn't for dem, we wouldnt even b here now. i wouldn't even b here, writin tis BLOG!

so do ur parents a favour and show dem tat u love dem. sure dey mite b fussy and nagging u around all the time, but they are doin tis for 1 thing and 1 reason only, because they LOVE u. and u dun have to send dem flowers everyday to thnk dem. u just have to listen to dem n make dem hapi. its not tat hard to do. really!

frens..being a teenager myself, i have had crushes on frens around me. i mean who hasn't? when ur young, puppy love is a natural thing. i have seen my frens around havin girlfrens n boyfrens, but i wonder, wat for? do dey have to b a couple to show tat dey love each other. to me, as long as u love tat special person, u dun have to couple or tel every1 tat u r 1, u jz have to show how much u love n care about tat person. askin questions like, hw r u? r u hapi? or things like, i mis u or i luv u, is gud enough. as long as u both know tat u really care for each other, tats love. but for a teenager, ur still young, n growing, u dun have to rush into relationships, u still have ur whole life ahead of u! puppy love n crushes r fine, but dun get too into it. u'l jz end up getin urself hurt. i mean it.

saying da three words: I LOVE YOU. its really a BIG deal for me. tellin someone u luv dem is no joke. sure u can say i love u to ur frens for fun. but dun joke around with love. if u go around tellin everyone u love dem, den u seriously dun get the definition and the meanin of the word love. for me, when i tel someone i luv dem, i mean it. i really do. even as a family member, a person u admire, or even ur frens, u got to show tat u reali care about them.

when u love someone, dun be shy to admit it. look deep into their eyes and tel dem tat u love dem. my advice to people, LIVE WHILE U CAN, LOVE WHEN U CAN, DREAM WHEN U WANT, AND ACHIEVE WAT IS RIGHT.

tats all i got to say, remember, u can never love another if u dun learn to love urself. i love u all.

Blu3 @nGeL signin out(wif love)

joelle's bday( yesterday la)

hihi! ^^

wel yesterday we celebrated my dear fren joelle's bday at klcc. its was reali fun! well her mum picked me up and together wif michelle, sophine, yingyee, chun chun and da bday gal, we went to da lrt station. we got our tickets n met up wif dinesh n ashveen. michelle, dinesh n ash wen time square to get sum presents, so we wen our seperate ways. we got on da train n reached klcc. der we met up wif kong keshen n briginder(sori if i mispell) den we walked to da park to wait for da others. afta awhile da whole gang was here!

i went to da food court to find jin chern. but den! da da drrrrrr(evil sound) jin chern told me song shin was here! joelle was so mad! she pulled my hand and ran off! joelle started to cry(poor her) i walked over to song shi and asked him y he was here. he started to tel me sum stuff i din understand. i brought him over to wish her but she refused to see him. so chern had to leave wif song shin! i was so pissed! but wateva la.

we wen to get our tickets and decided to watch 'night at da museum 2' afta tat, we wen to da park for a picnic. it was so excitin. i nvr tried it before. we had our snack n some laughs. we packed up n wen bak in to watch da movie. da show was so funny! even though i watched it b4, i stil laughed nono stop. prakkash was so crazy, makin every1 laugh along. lol. dinesh wen to buy a cake and we sang a song for joelle. she was so touched! but sadly da women in charge der asked us to leave. we wen to da park n took a photo.

we had to go home. we hugged each other and said our goodbyes. i hope joelle had a great time. i know i did. hehe. happy birthday u crazy gal! XD

blu3 @nGeL signin out

i was freakin bored...

Rules and regulation of the tag : All 21 people must do unless you don't have a blog. Write the names of 21 friends you can think of in your head. And then answer the questions , Say you're guessing if you don't know , but at least guess on all of them.After doing this , tag your unlucky friends to do the same.
1.jin chern
2.carmen
3.chui yin
4.kong
5.keshen
6.Prakkash
7.ruth
8.sharmila
9.dev
10. naresha
11.Philip
12.tommy
13.joelle
14.leesha
15.elya
16.jeremy
17.michelle
18.stephanie
19.dinesh
20. song shin
21.samson

1. How do you meet 7?
i dun remember? she stopped me wen i was shoppin wif my sis?
2. What would you do if you and 15 had never met?
my life would b more peaceful. sori elya. lol.
3. What would you do if 20 and 1 dated?
that would seriously b damn weird. but ok! :)
4. Have you seen 17 cried?
nope. so far so gud.
5. Would 4 and 16 make a good couple?
sure if dey enjoy bein gay.
6. Do you think 11 is attractive?
eggy tan? i gues so? uuh...very cute??
7. What's 2 favourite colour?
yay. i noe tis one. w8...is it purple? i hope it is...hehe sori carmen. =P
8. When was the last time you talked to 9?
today. he oni said Hi! ;(
9. What language does 8 speak?
da retarded language, who knows wat tat gal is talkin about!
10. Who is 13 going out with?
who knows, probably any hot guy she sees...
11. Would you ever date 17 ?
=.= she's a gal...hmm...okay!
12. Where does 18 live?
on earth. duhh!
13. What is the best thing about 4?
he's caring & sweet. but freakin sick!
14. What would you like to tell 10 right now ?
dun b emo. im always here 4 u!
15. What is the best thing about 20?
he's a freakin retard.^^
16. Have you ever kiss 2?
NO!!! she's crazy!
17. What is the best memory you have of 5?
he started laughin wen he was cryin. ( i noe lame ryt?)
18. When's the next time you're going to see 4?
tomorow, he better cum! or else!
19. How is 7 different from 6?
one black one white? lol. jokin jokin! wateva la, stil luv em both:)
20. Is 2 pretty?
yea...pretty crazy! haha.
21. What was your 1st impression of 15?
gosh! tis guy muz b kind n sweet. ( totali wrong!)
22. How did you meet 3?
in kindergarden. were enermies, but now were tight.^^
23. Is 5 your best friend?
he's more den a bff, he's lyk my bro..
24. Do you hate 12?
sumtyms wen he's emo. bt he's a great guy tat noes french! lol.
25. Have you seen 18 in the last month?
yup. i saw her today! weeeee :D
26. When was the last time you saw 16?
today in skul.
27. Have you been to 5's house?
yup. xmas laz year.
28. When's the next time you'll see 10?
2moro in skul i gues..
29. Are you close to 11?
hmm...not reli. bt he's damn cute n funi 2 chat wif.
30. Have you been to the movies with 4?
sadly nope. :(
31. Have you gotten in trouble with 8?
ya. i wasnt retarded enough. XD
32. Would you give 19 a hug?
uuh...yea...
33. When have you lied to 3?
wen i was lyin 2 b bz wen i was actuali in da bathroom. haha.
34. Is 11 good at socializing?
i can always hear em talkin. yea...i tink..
35. Do you know a secret about 8?
ya. loads of dem. muahaha =P
36. Describe the relationship between 12 and 18.
dey are classmates?
37. What's the best thing about your friendship with 9?
he is my fiance. getin married in 12 december. lol.
43. Has 21 met your parents?
his my cousin. duhh!
44. How did you meet 11?
he was so fair he blinded my eyes.
45. Did you ever accidentally physically hurt 3?
maybe...maybe not...
46. Do you live close to 7?
kinda close..
47. What is 8's favourite food?
she eats everthing! so, i duno! piggy!
48. What kind of car does 1 have?
Doesnt even own one. or does he?!?
49. Have you traveled anywhere with 9?
ya. by feet. 2 mch. hehe^^
50. If you give 14 a $100 , What would she / he spend it on?
sumthing retarded like sharmila. cuz she never stops laughin! haha.

p.s im was seriously freakin bored XD

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