update with my life..

helo helo...my lovely smilley bloggie..

well...sori i didnt update so long..but as if anyone reads my blog...ahhhahahahah... who cares..as long as i can let out my feelins somewer..im hapi.. why so many people dun update blog oso ar? haiyoyo kecewanya aku..haha..

hmm..well two days ago..i was really hyper and hapi..chatin off with my frens in msn n fb..haha..then my dad asked me to go off...as usual..so i said bye to my frens..and logged off..it was 12.30..i really couldnt sleep at all..i really cant sleep at all these days..i guess i have alot in my mind..i really need to talk to someone..my mood swings are driving me nuts..suddenly im sad..den im hapi..its pissing alot of ppl off..including myself..haiizzz..

anyways..continue..so..i got outside my room..and decided to sleep on the couch..suddenly my phone vibrated..it was kong..hahah..he seriously is a great pet bro..he's always nice and kind..we text till 2.30am...hahah..i was bored..and i lyk smsin kong..i duno why..wether im emo..or hapi..hvin him der..jz makes me smiile..and feel safe..

haha..i admit...i was jealous of a certain people..and tat made me emo all da time..but lately..i get to sit down and think..why do i gt jealous? its just so wrong..its my fault..and i started thinking clear about it..and i decided just to be more positive and just ignore it...i even gt to think clear about alot of other things..i always thought people...my frens..are all distaning frm me..and im nt tat close..but..i gt it off..and tried to be optimistic..and it did.

but..i just jinx it..and now..im emo again..haaiiizz..i dun care la..i just want 2 try my best to smile..like kong said..he's happier seeing me hapi...im sure other people are happier oso..but..i do it too over la..now..im just being annOying..haiizzz..im really sori.

i tink yea..i am annoying...and i always say sori..but i do ntg abt it..i just make it worst..trying to turn tat into stg positive..hope i can..haiizz..i just miss last year..so much..da photo wars..kklub..just hanging out with my frens..it was so awesome..but..i noe..i hv to let go of the past..and move on with my life..those memories..will jz remain in my mind..

uploaded a few pics onto facebook tat i drew..i felt so hapi..people commenting..just so hyper..people are so sweet la..and..l8tely..its raining alot..and i mean alot..but..the skies are clearing..and its soo beautiful..nature is just so amazing..i got so many pics of da sky..i remember..yesterday, while i was waiting for daa uncle to bring me home..i was at da bball court..with joelle..hahah..so she lied down on her bag..and she luked up 2 da sky..den she yank my shirt and ask me 2 lay down. i put my bad behind my head and did so..i luked up..and wat did i see? da most magnificent thing ever..the sky was so clear...only a few streaks of clouds in the sky..it was so peaceful..lying there...but den..i was kacau-ed by joelle..hahaha...we got up and took a few pics..it was awesome..

life is so weird lately..i've been called annoying..i hurt people..and den..its da opposite? like..saying im a great fren..and i help them..aaarrggh..i gues i got answer 2 my ques..da thg causing alll da problems im facing in my life..is actually..me..myself..=(

yea..they are right..all i noe 2 do is cry cry cry...sori sori sori..but i dont solve anythg.i really understand wat they mean by tat now..

gosh..im sounding emo again..haaa...im confused..i really need someone 2 talk to now..knowin i will just cause pain again..i rather nt..people..whoever is reading this..(i dun tink anyone is)..im sori 4 beiing annoying..n sayin sori all da time..bt tats me..im like tat..just hope u cn forgive me..for all da things i have done to hurt u..if there's anyway i cn make it up to u..tellme..and i will try my best to change..

thats all for now..

read it and weep..signin out!