boring laaa...=P

here i am..again..siting here..in front of my comp..hahah..bored..as usual...darnnnn...

well update update! yesterday..we celebrated my dad's bday! we had a blast. we rented out a room with a tv and karoake sistem. we were singing our hearts out. hangin out with family seriously makes a smile appear on my face. esp my clowny father!! hahah. my cousinf frm L.A. came down 2 visit. alana and greg. along with my aunty munmun and uncle alan. well, through the months...my uncle danny has been speacially made a video for my daddy. entitled.."portrait of a joker" hahah....suitable for him. we laughed alot throughout the video as it is really really funny. esp during da bday wishes. i was the camera girl tat day, haddling my uncle's camera. i felt like a pro...ahahha..so i just snap shots of my family and da kids running arnd and stuff. well, during da video, i wanted 2 get sum gud shots of dad. so i zoomed in. and guess what? i saw tears in his eyes...that hit me! a tear rolled down my face...i felt so touched. haaiiizz...i hope my daddy is fine and hapi always.=) so we revealed da fantastic cake my mum bought. it was a football...which was really really awesome!!. hahah...we headed back to my house and chillaxed..ahaha..wel..everyone left at 12.30...kinda late for da kids i must say..hehe. and you know what? i had sooo much fun..but i din bring my camera! =( omg! i sux wei...haizz.. but no matter wat,,these memories will always remain in my heart. happy birthday again daddy!!

hmm..on friday we had a holiday. so keshen said we were goin 2 makan at tiam fatt da day before. so i set an alarn clock at 9 am. checked my phone..ntg. 10..ntg. 10.30..still ntg! so i text em. tk reply...call em..din answer!!.getting on my nerves!! so he replied da msg and said we cant go. den i was like wth? haha. den kong rang me up and said they were goin now! den i was like: wow..i just woke up..hahaa. lucky i was dressed! so i told my nanny and she said we had 2 walk there. ==..perfect..so grabbed my bad and walked. i was almost der wen the skul was almost visible. saw some figures there. i saw prakkash 1st. den he yelled! ok...definately prakkash. hahah. saw joelle there. thank god!! i x da oni gal. haha. zhen kesh kong and prem joined us..and we were off. so we found a spot and sat down. ordered our drinks and just talked. haha. da guys talked about stuff me and joelle had no idea abt. hahah. den prakkash started being retarded. as usual.=) he said..:' ok..i see ok..i see oni 6 people here.." den he pointed at everyone one by one. "you..you..you..he skipped me..you you and you!" den he said hi 2 everyone. and not 2 me. hahah. den he grabbed all da guys over and whispered in their ear stg. i looked at joelle. and we said..: he's playin.." i gt a text frm kong sayin he's jkin, hahah..too bad prakkash!! then they were talkin very softly. then suddenly..all of them looked at me at the same time!! ahahaha ...they look so funny!! so joelle lend my phone 2 play. da LG one. then bubu and kkb keep callin me! wth? hahah. so i called backk. lame...as usual. den joelle and i said we should miss call prem. haha. so we did. he was acting so over wei. askin : who da hell is this person kong? i lukked at kong and gave em da look nt 2 tell. den i just ask prem..letme see..maybe i noe..i luked at da number..hiding my laugh. haha. so den he ask prakkash zhen and bubu. and all of them started laughin like crap!! hahahaha...it was so funny. prem looked so blur. kesian em. den zhen said : eh ping..its tat person right? kong just laughed and said yes. prem was getting pissed off. he kept sayin it was joelle. hahah.so we paid and decided to ciao. den prakkash say he wanted 2 buy stg random like kayar. hah. so we waited at the bicycle shop. zhen came over. so kong asked em wer's prakkash and prem. den hee said luk 4 urself. suddenly we heard " bang bang bang" haha.

we looked back. and saw them playin with those tiny guns tat shoot out bullets of smoke? hahah. they were sooo childish shooting everywer. ahahahhaha. but they sure made me laugh! and den prakkash said they cn play mafia wars with it..hahah..funi la he. we went our separate ways and went home. i had fun..thx u keshen!!! it was really awesome..i miss this times..it was unforgetable.=)

well that's all for now. read it and weep signin off..^^

update with my life..

helo helo...my lovely smilley bloggie..

well...sori i didnt update so long..but as if anyone reads my blog...ahhhahahahah... who cares..as long as i can let out my feelins somewer..im hapi.. why so many people dun update blog oso ar? haiyoyo kecewanya aku..haha..

hmm..well two days ago..i was really hyper and hapi..chatin off with my frens in msn n fb..haha..then my dad asked me to go off...as usual..so i said bye to my frens..and logged off..it was 12.30..i really couldnt sleep at all..i really cant sleep at all these days..i guess i have alot in my mind..i really need to talk to someone..my mood swings are driving me nuts..suddenly im sad..den im hapi..its pissing alot of ppl off..including myself..haiizzz..

anyways..continue..so..i got outside my room..and decided to sleep on the couch..suddenly my phone vibrated..it was kong..hahah..he seriously is a great pet bro..he's always nice and kind..we text till 2.30am...hahah..i was bored..and i lyk smsin kong..i duno why..wether im emo..or hapi..hvin him der..jz makes me smiile..and feel safe..

haha..i admit...i was jealous of a certain people..and tat made me emo all da time..but lately..i get to sit down and think..why do i gt jealous? its just so wrong..its my fault..and i started thinking clear about it..and i decided just to be more positive and just ignore it...i even gt to think clear about alot of other things..i always thought people...my frens..are all distaning frm me..and im nt tat close..but..i gt it off..and tried to be optimistic..and it did.

but..i just jinx it..and now..im emo again..haaiiizz..i dun care la..i just want 2 try my best to smile..like kong said..he's happier seeing me hapi...im sure other people are happier oso..but..i do it too over la..now..im just being annOying..haiizzz..im really sori.

i tink yea..i am annoying...and i always say sori..but i do ntg abt it..i just make it worst..trying to turn tat into stg positive..hope i can..haiizz..i just miss last year..so much..da photo wars..kklub..just hanging out with my frens..it was so awesome..but..i noe..i hv to let go of the past..and move on with my life..those memories..will jz remain in my mind..

uploaded a few pics onto facebook tat i drew..i felt so hapi..people commenting..just so hyper..people are so sweet la..and..l8tely..its raining alot..and i mean alot..but..the skies are clearing..and its soo beautiful..nature is just so amazing..i got so many pics of da sky..i remember..yesterday, while i was waiting for daa uncle to bring me home..i was at da bball court..with joelle..hahah..so she lied down on her bag..and she luked up 2 da sky..den she yank my shirt and ask me 2 lay down. i put my bad behind my head and did so..i luked up..and wat did i see? da most magnificent thing ever..the sky was so clear...only a few streaks of clouds in the sky..it was so peaceful..lying there...but den..i was kacau-ed by joelle..hahaha...we got up and took a few pics..it was awesome..

life is so weird lately..i've been called annoying..i hurt people..and den..its da opposite? like..saying im a great fren..and i help them..aaarrggh..i gues i got answer 2 my ques..da thg causing alll da problems im facing in my life..is actually..me..myself..=(

yea..they are right..all i noe 2 do is cry cry cry...sori sori sori..but i dont solve anythg.i really understand wat they mean by tat now..

gosh..im sounding emo again..haaa...im confused..i really need someone 2 talk to now..knowin i will just cause pain again..i rather nt..people..whoever is reading this..(i dun tink anyone is)..im sori 4 beiing annoying..n sayin sori all da time..bt tats me..im like tat..just hope u cn forgive me..for all da things i have done to hurt u..if there's anyway i cn make it up to u..tellme..and i will try my best to change..

thats all for now..

read it and weep..signin out!