back to december

really nice song...by taylor swift:) love the lyrics....damn meanningful..


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MqAkTyprC_o

Lyrics:

I'm so glad you made time to see me
How's life, tell me how's your family?
I haven't seen them in a while
You've been good, busier then ever
Small talk, work and the weather
Your guard is up and I know why

Cause the last time you saw me
Still burns in the back of your mind
You gave me roses and I left them there to die

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time
Turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing that I realized what I had when you were mine
I'd go back to December turn around and make it alright
I go back to December all the time

These days I haven't been sleeping
Staying up playing back myself pleading
When your birthday passed and I didn't call
And I think about summer all the beautiful times
I watched you laughing from the passenger side
Realized I loved you in the fall
Then the cold came, the dark days when fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love and all I gave you was goodbye

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time
Turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing that I realized what I had when you were mine
I'd go back to December turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time

I miss your tan skin your sweet smiles so good to me so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night
The first time you ever saw me cry
Maybe this is wishful thinking
Probably my mindless dreaming
If we loved again I swear I'd love you right

I'd go back in time and change it but I can't
So if the chain is on your door I understand

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December
Turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing that I realized what I had when you were mine
I'd go back to December turn around and make it alright
I'd go back to December turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time

All the time

CYYS<3 IMTF

just walk away....

HAVE YOU EVER
have you ever loved and lost somebody...
wishing there's a chance to say im sorry...
can't you see?
that's the way i feel about you and me baby..

have you ever felt your heart was breaking..
looking down the road you should be taking..
i should know..
because i lost the day i let you go...

-SCLUB7-

haiz...life...i officially ruined not only mine..but other's too:D i feel super duper awesome! lying with the guy that loves me? hurting the one that adores me? why do i have to cause people pain all the time? i just reli cant stand the drama goin on in life...haiz...

i just hope im doin the right thing...im doing this all only for their future..i noe it's brighter without me as the dark cloud blockin dem ...frm smiles...they say im the one making dem happier...i make dem smile more the crying..well? it still doesnt count cause..i still HURT THEM..god...im just so useles wei...haiz...

so wats my plan now? honestly i duno? i cant really go on...at all. i just hope i made the right decision doin this. its the only fair thing to do. but..i swear i never meant for things to turn out this way. i just wanted love? n to love...and to be loved? but i ruined my chances? well...as long as their heart will heal eventually..i dont think mine can...but as long as they smile. sure:D

just walking away from it all..seems like a bad idea...but it is an option. and im taking it. im really sorry to you two beloved guys. memories will be cherished:) ttfn.

IMTF<3

NEVER HAD A DREAM
i never had a dream come true...
till the day that i found you..
even though i pretend that i moved on..
you'll always be my baby..

i'd never found the words to say..
you're the ONES i think about each day..
and no matter where life takes me to..
a part of ME...will always be...with you..<3

-SCLUB7-

readitandweep signing out...hurt...

remember to >> =)

well...life's totally unfair. but well..all good things always come to an end. i have to admit..i expected something bad to happen...but..well..you're worth it;) so all we can do now is chill and hope for the best. well..i believe so...i hope you do too^^

no matter what happens i wan you to know..that things wont change unless u start to doubt. so please dont! happy memories will always stay in your brain and your heart...and well..im always with you..and you're always with me..:)

thank you for all the happy memories..and god bless you..have a happy good life;) i want you to smile always and live like there's no tomorro!^^ promise?
p.s. nobody can make me smile like YOU do;)...<3

IMTF=3