i can't...again..

well...not a long post yea? kinda off mood...fights between those two. don't wana say la. i cant believe she told him i was a backstabber? dat he can't trust me? and im a b? how could she? it hurts..knowing ppl tink dat way about me. haiz. what j say was so true..i should try and grow up..and be mature. be der...and dun be emo when the ppl arnd are...
anyways...gawd..i duno...y cant i ever gt the guy? its like..i let go of z. and abt him...its still der...i just cant stop la. and wel..the other him? lols...confusin. he seemed so nice and sweet and everythg. wen she told me she liked him...my heart literally sank. bt..i felt like im keeping stg frm her la..guilt again. and yea..i jz found out who he likes...awesomer...heart sank...so wat nw? it wen underground? lols...i cant stand it la. he came to me and said..i x refuse. gawd...its better if u dunno sumtyms. i..jz..need to cry..u noe? as for .... he reli sweet..bt i x reli x hv feelings for him. oni as a fren. still maybe im closer to him..and im losing another. gawd la..it hurts so much! damn y did i have to noe...haiz...tats all la..i cant stand it dy.

ttfn...:(

A friend i Made=)

so well....lately..i got closer to a few new people. and yea..i like gettin to know other ppl. so who is this lovely fren? SHYAM SUNDER JOSEPH RAJA;)...he's really a nice guy. well got to know him better lately. im just glad la...that people get me..and understand me..like him? its awesome knowing people like him..phillip..tommy..dev..zhen..kiren...and kong..are arnd...being my fren. shyam..hmm...though i dont noe him like very well yet...he seems to be a great dude. even doh i heard he likes punchin ppl..alot? ahahah. hey..nobody's perfect right? he broke his nose b4? so? lols...he has an insecurity abt it? lols. he's just really adorable la. temaning me..during my lonely nights. i just feel lucky..being able to meet him. so..if he's reading this ...i hope he knows..im always here for him. and he always has a fren in me. and i apologize if i ever hurt him. smile always shyamie=)...

so he just sent me a msg...its really aww momments..when i get this msg frm ppl=).. thnk shyam.

(shyam) says:
hhahah
okay
i won leave u
i dun wan to

cute pic eh? lols.^^

i hope i cn really be there for my frens la..like shyam..kiren and shaarmila. so many probs lately. hope they are fine. ttfn=)

I LIKE SWEET MESSAGES FROM FRIENDS=)

lols. i like copying down whatever sweet things my friends write down lately^^..im happy. hahhahaah. its really touching. but now i got closer to so many other people. im so hyper. i miss the memang close frens. thnk god..we all still talk. i miss the old times la=(..but hey..change happens, and im thankful for wat i have nw..<3 me friends...!!=)

so this is what my dear friens SHYAMIE just told me=)..btw...he's such a sweetheart. so adorable. funi la. i like chatting with him. fun guy.=)

(shyam)
Forget love... I'd rather fall in chocolate!!! XD says:
- i kno
-i tink ur the oni one i trust now?
-hahha
- i dunno hu else to trust



another person i got closer to lately was KIRENRAJ!!! hahah. my dear dungubell. he's funi all the time. call me funi names. but he's here for me..and im glad!!=)

(kiren)
TABLATRONIX says:
-u my cute hunny!!!
-and i believe u so much!
-also love u


tc you guys...love u all!^^
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