a thought ...

Often times we say goodbye to the person we love without wanting to. Though that doesn’t mean that we've stopped loving them or we've stopped to care. Sometimes goodbye is a painful way to say I love you..<3

je tre tre tre desole...Parfois je voudrais vous poser, comment êtes-vous? "comme nous le faisions .. mais je sais que les choses ne sont pas plus la même ..

te regarder chanter aujourd'hui .. me fait pleurer .. Je suis tellement désolé pour tout ce que j'ai fait pour vous faire du mal .. vous ne pourriez pas voir ce que c'est? mais ce que nous avions était grande .. c'était juste des choses tristes n'a pas fonctionné entre nous ..


'rentabilité' et 'l'homme qui ne peut être proposée' a été une belle chanson .. vous avez utilisé pour la chanter pour moi:) Je me souviens. et je sais que vous n'allez pas me croire quand je dis que vous manquez. mais merci pour les souvenirs.

J'espère que vous avez déplacé sans moi. vous méritez un mister vie heureuse "bonbon" appelant:) hahha. prendre soin. sourit toujours .. et oui .. j'ai été enchantée de vous rencontrer aussi .. désolé et merci. au revoir.

I always knew looking back on the tears would make me laugh, but I never knew looking back on the laughs would make me cry :(


>bonbon>>tt<<

ow maiiii:D

don't you know who you are? you're my shooting star:D

KNOCKS SAYSSSSSS THISSSS...

each nite i ask the stars up above,

why must i be a teenager in love?

one day i feel so happy

next day i feel so sad

i guess i have tonite

each nite i ask the stars up above

why do i love her so much


p.s. though i might not be able to offer you as much as u offer me..i offer u nothing less the the world..ily..thanks for sticking by me:)
IMTF

lurveeeeeeee quote

“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.”

nice quote;)

if you're the one...

heard this song when i was a little girl...and love it till now:)..<3

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p3bFOT1e-AU&feature=related

If you're not the one, then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one, then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine, then why does your heart return my call?
If you you are not mine, would I have the strength to stand at all?

I never know what the future brings
But I know you're here with me now
We'll make it through and I hope
You are the one I share my life with

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it,
I don't understand If I'm not made for you,
then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there anyway that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you, then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you, then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me, then why does this distance name my life?
If you're not for me, then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through and I hope
You are the one I share my life with

And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray that you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it,
I don't understand If I'm not made for you,
then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there anyway that I can stay in your arms?

'Cause I miss your body and soul so strong
That it takes my breath away
And I breath you into my heart
And I pray for the strength to stand today

'Cause I love you whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And though my heart is by your side

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it,
I don't understand If I'm not made for you,
then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there anyway that I can stay in your arms?
~END~

i bet you have no idea how i feel towards you..but if i could tell you anything..it would be this song..except the wife part><..lols. anyways, it doesn't matter how i feel anymore...cause i know things will never work out. thanks for the memories..imtf<3>

wishes;D

some earliest wishes on my bday:D

shyam called me 11.57 and talked till 12. hahahha. sho sweet:)
: happy birthday chubby cheeks...have fun yea..smile...

keshen's called was the best and most epic wish><
: hello? hello? happpy birthday? hello hello? *hangs up*
lmao!

kiren was the next kept on saying he was hyper..i wonder why he was..and now i noe
: EPY BUFDAY TO U,EPY BUFADAY TO U,U SO CHUBBY AND SO CUTEEEEE,U KNOE I LOVE U!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

EPY BUFDAY CARISAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

followed by zhen who needed clues==
: OHH HAPPY BDAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYY:DDDDDDDDDDDDD hv a good one:D

herrvena was surprisingly early:D
: OMG carissa! your as OLD as me now! lol. hapi birthday to u my dear dear P***** P***** n most G******* carissa who sings so well(: hv a crazy year bein 16:d yeha!

tommy's msg was daaaaaaaammmmmmmmmmmnnnn longgggggg..but all meaningful and well if it wasnt long it wouldnt b tom;)
: hapi birthday urmmm idk wat to say actually got so much wana say but x do..so i x exactly noe wat i cud tell u n wat nt 2...etc etc..(end with) ..ey vouz cyys, joyeuz anniversaire peut un dieu benir u...au revoir:)

my dear pillay ahem i mean shaarmila was next:)
:happy sweet 16 carissa! have an awesome one! love u babe..(yuck lol..jk)

well all these are the dear people who wished me at 12 sharp:)..thank you ya'll love you all so much:D...made me realise how happy n lucky i am to have you all by my side..god bless you all...imtf<3

just a dream~

(just a dream rhythm)
i was thinking bout food,
thinking bout meat,
thinking bout us,
what we gonna eat..
open my eyes..and there was KFC...xD..lmao.

(some funny before crap starts><)


wow...i had a great dream this afternoon:D..yay yay!..only sad part was when i woke up>< is="=">

anyways...so yea..he was walking me home and we made our way to a nearby park and we sat side by side just talking like no ones watching. laughing...smiling..just spending time together. so well we left awhile later and made our way to my home. we were watchin a movie together on the sofa bed...and he jz leaned back and grab my hands...held them tightly..looking in to my eyes..and giving me a smile. its funny cause i remember his beautiful brown eyes..but..i dont remember his face? haiz. i wished i did:) he laid down beside me...pushing my head against his bare chest..so warm and comfy...played around..cuddled and just spent out time together. i laid there...on his broad shoulders..playing with his hair..lingering my fingers through his hair..he held my hand and placed them on his chest..: can you feel it? he winked. :' that's my heart..its beating..beating for you:). my heart literally melted.

before i could reply..i opened my eyes..and my phone alarm was ringing. haizz..why did the beautiful dream have to end. i wish i could have times like this with the one i love more often. just the perfect touch to a relationship...time to bond<3

only down part of today...was i needed MORE TIME! great memory will remain in my heart always..the only down part...was i opened my eyes..and it was only JUST A DREAM~...imtf


anyways..my dear pingy's birthday was today!!! 16..getting old;) HAPPY BIRTHDAY PINGY! hope you had an awesome one. mei loves u always. smile and never give up. i gotcha back k:) blackberry SUXS><...ttfn...you're the best. sorry and thanks for everythg:) IMTF KWP<3

~you know you're in love when you cant sleep, cause finally reality is better than your dreams..~

relating..

All blame is a waste of time. No matter how much fault you find with another, and regardless of how much you blame him, it will not change you. The only thing blame does is to keep the focus off you when you are looking for external reasons to explain your unhappiness or frustration. You may succeed in making another feel guilty about something by blaming him, but you won't succeed in changing whatever it is about you that is making you unhappy..