alone..

silence spreads around the room,

the crowd is hushed,

nothing is heard,

emptyness..

the gentle wind touches my skin,

the gentle slowly becomes rough,

thunder is heard,

lightning is seen..

and with a flash of light,

everything was gone,

i was alone,

just standing there,

all by myself..

i knew i was afraid,

of being alone,

but i found something,

i finally found peace..

i looked up and saw another light,

i could hear angels singing,

i was as light as a cloud,

i was in a paradise, an escape..

there i was, so happy and smiling,

but it all came to an end,

when i saw my perfect world falling,

it seems like wherever i am,

i bring sadness along with me,

im a destroyer of hapiness..

with a blink of an eye,

i was back on earth,

my friends were there once again,

laughing, jokingm playing, just being themselves,

i look at them with a smile,

though i was only dreaming,

im glad to be here, now, with them..

thank you for being here..

all of you..

i love u guys :)

read and think about it...

1. I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you.
我愛你不是因為你是誰，而是我在你面前可以是誰。
2. No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry.
沒有男人或女人是值得你為他流眼淚，值得的那一位，不會要你哭。

3. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

那人不是你所想般愛你，但不代表那人不是全心全意地愛你。

4. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart.

一個真正的朋友是向著你伸手，觸動你心靈的人。

5. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them.

掛念一個人最差的方式，就是你坐在他身旁，而知道你不能擁有他。

6. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.

就算你不快樂也不要皺眉，因為你永不知道誰會愛上你的笑容。

7. To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.

在世界裡你可能只是某人，但對某人你可能是全世界。

8. Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't willing to waste their time on you.

不要花時間在一個不會花時間在你身上的人。

9. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.可能神要我們在遇到那位對的人之前先遇上一些錯的人，讓我們遇到那位對先生/對小姐時懂得珍惜。

10. Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened.

不要因為完結而哭，要為曾經發生而微笑。

11. There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more careful about who you trust next time around.

這個世界永遠也會有一些傷害你的人，你要做的就是繼續去信人和小心你下次信的人。

12. Make yourself a better person and know who you are before you try and know someone else and expect them to know you.

在你嘗試了解其他人和盼望其他人明白你之前，先把你自己變成一個更好的人和了解你自己。
13. Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to.

不要太努力去找，最好的東西是在你最預計不到的時候出現。
REMEMBER: WHATEVER HAPPENS, HAPPENS FOR A REASON.

緊記: 所有事也是因果循環的。

something i wrote...

i wrote tis poem? song? or just words from my heart today...

The Inside

emptyness fills my soul,

im alone, i feel so cold,

i stand by a side,

trying my best to hide,

im feeling scared and down,

my mind keeps spinning round and round,

everything is quiet,

i cant hear a sound,

im afraid,

its too late for me to apologise,

i use to have hope and faith by my side,

but now i know i was wrong,

we all never did get along,

its time, for me to leave..

im looking at them,

they're lookin at me,

but cant they see that im in pain?

all i can do is do my crying in the rain..

i cant stand it any longer,

they're just making me cry and sobber,

i heard something cracking,

my heart was aching,

its shatters to pieces,

never wil it, mend again..

i try to pick up the pieces,

but my mind keeps on flashing these faces,

they make me laugh and cry,

the end has come passing by,

its time for me to leave and say goodbye,

i will go back and try to get some sleep tonight,

i know that i have lost the fight,

the battle was hard, i tried my best,

but i guess that wasnt enough,

and i now i see,

the enemy was actualli the other side of me..

and when im gone,

a new era will be born..

i realised...

im finally free...

read it and weep signin out

kong woon ping, ooi jin chern

well, since im so bored these days, i just wanted to take off some time to talk about some off my frens.. kong woon ping and ooi jin chern. oso known as kkb n sherng ong bak! lol!

these to are one of my closest buddies!

kong woon ping(left) and prakkash(right)

lets talk about kong first. wel, he is my pet bro. bday on da 14 feb. he says he's lying about tat, but im not sure when is his bday now. lol. he is a really caring bro. and he likes blue like me!!! anyways, he helps me every time im in trouble. whenever im sad or depressed, i can always count on him. his like a shoulder for me to cry on, you noe? words to describe kong is alot. emo, retarded, funi, caring, blur, act macam gangster and alot more. but he is really a great guy. but i get veri annoyed with him sumtyms cuz he always says "i duno" to everything! lol. he might be a hot head sometimes, but i can see he means well. he scolds his frens, but i noe he does it for their own good. he gives me advice and made me a stronger person. kong woon ping, a guy with a heart...

ooi jin chern(left) and prakkash(right)

now, lets talk about mr ooi jin chern. haha. sherng ong bak! tat name was made by me n teera. lol. zhen, he's a really special guy. nvr seen sum1 tat is like him. he likes reading romance novels, he understands girls. he's really cute la. he's a very very caring fren. he is one of my poking buddies. a really interesting guy. describe him? wel, funi, retard, caring, special, dota freak, and more! he understands me. when i talk to him on the phone, i can actually let everything out. and he listens. and makes me hapi. haha. there's a lot of things i can toke about jin chern. a book perhaps. haha. textin him is very fun. he's really creative. and realy random sumtyms. he made me a happier person, and mademe learn tat life isnt useless. ooi jin chern, a caring and warm guy.


these two guys reallyh taught me alot of things about myself. and i really would like to thank them. i love these two! you guys rock!!!! ^^


Blu3 @nGeL signin out

LOVE:)

love..wat is it? reali? if u ask anyone on the street, u mite get totally diff answers from every1. wat is da definition of love? well, the meanin of luv depends on the person itself. everyone has a different way of lookin at things.

love--a strong feelin of deep affection for somebody or something. or a strong feelin of affection for somebody tat u are phisically attrated to. it could be ur family, ur frens, or even a hobby u like a lot. for example, a mother's love for her child, two people fallin in love, etc.etc.

to me, i tink love is truly a gift, a wonderful one, from God. He wans us to learn to love and appreciate da ones around us. He wans us to feel how bein love feels like. we should b lucky n blessed to be able to feel tis wonderful feelin called, love.

as a child or a baby, we have been loved by our parents, dey watched over us, raised us, and practically made us who we are today, if it wasn't for dem, we wouldnt even b here now. i wouldn't even b here, writin tis BLOG!

so do ur parents a favour and show dem tat u love dem. sure dey mite b fussy and nagging u around all the time, but they are doin tis for 1 thing and 1 reason only, because they LOVE u. and u dun have to send dem flowers everyday to thnk dem. u just have to listen to dem n make dem hapi. its not tat hard to do. really!

frens..being a teenager myself, i have had crushes on frens around me. i mean who hasn't? when ur young, puppy love is a natural thing. i have seen my frens around havin girlfrens n boyfrens, but i wonder, wat for? do dey have to b a couple to show tat dey love each other. to me, as long as u love tat special person, u dun have to couple or tel every1 tat u r 1, u jz have to show how much u love n care about tat person. askin questions like, hw r u? r u hapi? or things like, i mis u or i luv u, is gud enough. as long as u both know tat u really care for each other, tats love. but for a teenager, ur still young, n growing, u dun have to rush into relationships, u still have ur whole life ahead of u! puppy love n crushes r fine, but dun get too into it. u'l jz end up getin urself hurt. i mean it.

saying da three words: I LOVE YOU. its really a BIG deal for me. tellin someone u luv dem is no joke. sure u can say i love u to ur frens for fun. but dun joke around with love. if u go around tellin everyone u love dem, den u seriously dun get the definition and the meanin of the word love. for me, when i tel someone i luv dem, i mean it. i really do. even as a family member, a person u admire, or even ur frens, u got to show tat u reali care about them.

when u love someone, dun be shy to admit it. look deep into their eyes and tel dem tat u love dem. my advice to people, LIVE WHILE U CAN, LOVE WHEN U CAN, DREAM WHEN U WANT, AND ACHIEVE WAT IS RIGHT.

tats all i got to say, remember, u can never love another if u dun learn to love urself. i love u all.

Blu3 @nGeL signin out(wif love)

joelle's bday( yesterday la)

hihi! ^^

wel yesterday we celebrated my dear fren joelle's bday at klcc. its was reali fun! well her mum picked me up and together wif michelle, sophine, yingyee, chun chun and da bday gal, we went to da lrt station. we got our tickets n met up wif dinesh n ashveen. michelle, dinesh n ash wen time square to get sum presents, so we wen our seperate ways. we got on da train n reached klcc. der we met up wif kong keshen n briginder(sori if i mispell) den we walked to da park to wait for da others. afta awhile da whole gang was here!

i went to da food court to find jin chern. but den! da da drrrrrr(evil sound) jin chern told me song shin was here! joelle was so mad! she pulled my hand and ran off! joelle started to cry(poor her) i walked over to song shi and asked him y he was here. he started to tel me sum stuff i din understand. i brought him over to wish her but she refused to see him. so chern had to leave wif song shin! i was so pissed! but wateva la.

we wen to get our tickets and decided to watch 'night at da museum 2' afta tat, we wen to da park for a picnic. it was so excitin. i nvr tried it before. we had our snack n some laughs. we packed up n wen bak in to watch da movie. da show was so funny! even though i watched it b4, i stil laughed nono stop. prakkash was so crazy, makin every1 laugh along. lol. dinesh wen to buy a cake and we sang a song for joelle. she was so touched! but sadly da women in charge der asked us to leave. we wen to da park n took a photo.

we had to go home. we hugged each other and said our goodbyes. i hope joelle had a great time. i know i did. hehe. happy birthday u crazy gal! XD

blu3 @nGeL signin out

i was freakin bored...

Rules and regulation of the tag : All 21 people must do unless you don't have a blog. Write the names of 21 friends you can think of in your head. And then answer the questions , Say you're guessing if you don't know , but at least guess on all of them.After doing this , tag your unlucky friends to do the same.
1.jin chern
2.carmen
3.chui yin
4.kong
5.keshen
6.Prakkash
7.ruth
8.sharmila
9.dev
10. naresha
11.Philip
12.tommy
13.joelle
14.leesha
15.elya
16.jeremy
17.michelle
18.stephanie
19.dinesh
20. song shin
21.samson

1. How do you meet 7?
i dun remember? she stopped me wen i was shoppin wif my sis?
2. What would you do if you and 15 had never met?
my life would b more peaceful. sori elya. lol.
3. What would you do if 20 and 1 dated?
that would seriously b damn weird. but ok! :)
4. Have you seen 17 cried?
nope. so far so gud.
5. Would 4 and 16 make a good couple?
sure if dey enjoy bein gay.
6. Do you think 11 is attractive?
eggy tan? i gues so? uuh...very cute??
7. What's 2 favourite colour?
yay. i noe tis one. w8...is it purple? i hope it is...hehe sori carmen. =P
8. When was the last time you talked to 9?
today. he oni said Hi! ;(
9. What language does 8 speak?
da retarded language, who knows wat tat gal is talkin about!
10. Who is 13 going out with?
who knows, probably any hot guy she sees...
11. Would you ever date 17 ?
=.= she's a gal...hmm...okay!
12. Where does 18 live?
on earth. duhh!
13. What is the best thing about 4?
he's caring & sweet. but freakin sick!
14. What would you like to tell 10 right now ?
dun b emo. im always here 4 u!
15. What is the best thing about 20?
he's a freakin retard.^^
16. Have you ever kiss 2?
NO!!! she's crazy!
17. What is the best memory you have of 5?
he started laughin wen he was cryin. ( i noe lame ryt?)
18. When's the next time you're going to see 4?
tomorow, he better cum! or else!
19. How is 7 different from 6?
one black one white? lol. jokin jokin! wateva la, stil luv em both:)
20. Is 2 pretty?
yea...pretty crazy! haha.
21. What was your 1st impression of 15?
gosh! tis guy muz b kind n sweet. ( totali wrong!)
22. How did you meet 3?
in kindergarden. were enermies, but now were tight.^^
23. Is 5 your best friend?
he's more den a bff, he's lyk my bro..
24. Do you hate 12?
sumtyms wen he's emo. bt he's a great guy tat noes french! lol.
25. Have you seen 18 in the last month?
yup. i saw her today! weeeee :D
26. When was the last time you saw 16?
today in skul.
27. Have you been to 5's house?
yup. xmas laz year.
28. When's the next time you'll see 10?
2moro in skul i gues..
29. Are you close to 11?
hmm...not reli. bt he's damn cute n funi 2 chat wif.
30. Have you been to the movies with 4?
sadly nope. :(
31. Have you gotten in trouble with 8?
ya. i wasnt retarded enough. XD
32. Would you give 19 a hug?
uuh...yea...
33. When have you lied to 3?
wen i was lyin 2 b bz wen i was actuali in da bathroom. haha.
34. Is 11 good at socializing?
i can always hear em talkin. yea...i tink..
35. Do you know a secret about 8?
ya. loads of dem. muahaha =P
36. Describe the relationship between 12 and 18.
dey are classmates?
37. What's the best thing about your friendship with 9?
he is my fiance. getin married in 12 december. lol.
43. Has 21 met your parents?
his my cousin. duhh!
44. How did you meet 11?
he was so fair he blinded my eyes.
45. Did you ever accidentally physically hurt 3?
maybe...maybe not...
46. Do you live close to 7?
kinda close..
47. What is 8's favourite food?
she eats everthing! so, i duno! piggy!
48. What kind of car does 1 have?
Doesnt even own one. or does he?!?
49. Have you traveled anywhere with 9?
ya. by feet. 2 mch. hehe^^
50. If you give 14 a $100 , What would she / he spend it on?
sumthing retarded like sharmila. cuz she never stops laughin! haha.

p.s im was seriously freakin bored XD

blu3 @nGel signin out