boring laaa...=P

here i am..again..siting here..in front of my comp..hahah..bored..as usual...darnnnn...

well update update! yesterday..we celebrated my dad's bday! we had a blast. we rented out a room with a tv and karoake sistem. we were singing our hearts out. hangin out with family seriously makes a smile appear on my face. esp my clowny father!! hahah. my cousinf frm L.A. came down 2 visit. alana and greg. along with my aunty munmun and uncle alan. well, through the months...my uncle danny has been speacially made a video for my daddy. entitled.."portrait of a joker" hahah....suitable for him. we laughed alot throughout the video as it is really really funny. esp during da bday wishes. i was the camera girl tat day, haddling my uncle's camera. i felt like a pro...ahahha..so i just snap shots of my family and da kids running arnd and stuff. well, during da video, i wanted 2 get sum gud shots of dad. so i zoomed in. and guess what? i saw tears in his eyes...that hit me! a tear rolled down my face...i felt so touched. haaiiizz...i hope my daddy is fine and hapi always.=) so we revealed da fantastic cake my mum bought. it was a football...which was really really awesome!!. hahah...we headed back to my house and chillaxed..ahaha..wel..everyone left at 12.30...kinda late for da kids i must say..hehe. and you know what? i had sooo much fun..but i din bring my camera! =( omg! i sux wei...haizz.. but no matter wat,,these memories will always remain in my heart. happy birthday again daddy!!

hmm..on friday we had a holiday. so keshen said we were goin 2 makan at tiam fatt da day before. so i set an alarn clock at 9 am. checked my phone..ntg. 10..ntg. 10.30..still ntg! so i text em. tk reply...call em..din answer!!.getting on my nerves!! so he replied da msg and said we cant go. den i was like wth? haha. den kong rang me up and said they were goin now! den i was like: wow..i just woke up..hahaa. lucky i was dressed! so i told my nanny and she said we had 2 walk there. ==..perfect..so grabbed my bad and walked. i was almost der wen the skul was almost visible. saw some figures there. i saw prakkash 1st. den he yelled! ok...definately prakkash. hahah. saw joelle there. thank god!! i x da oni gal. haha. zhen kesh kong and prem joined us..and we were off. so we found a spot and sat down. ordered our drinks and just talked. haha. da guys talked about stuff me and joelle had no idea abt. hahah. den prakkash started being retarded. as usual.=) he said..:' ok..i see ok..i see oni 6 people here.." den he pointed at everyone one by one. "you..you..you..he skipped me..you you and you!" den he said hi 2 everyone. and not 2 me. hahah. den he grabbed all da guys over and whispered in their ear stg. i looked at joelle. and we said..: he's playin.." i gt a text frm kong sayin he's jkin, hahah..too bad prakkash!! then they were talkin very softly. then suddenly..all of them looked at me at the same time!! ahahaha ...they look so funny!! so joelle lend my phone 2 play. da LG one. then bubu and kkb keep callin me! wth? hahah. so i called backk. lame...as usual. den joelle and i said we should miss call prem. haha. so we did. he was acting so over wei. askin : who da hell is this person kong? i lukked at kong and gave em da look nt 2 tell. den i just ask prem..letme see..maybe i noe..i luked at da number..hiding my laugh. haha. so den he ask prakkash zhen and bubu. and all of them started laughin like crap!! hahahaha...it was so funny. prem looked so blur. kesian em. den zhen said : eh ping..its tat person right? kong just laughed and said yes. prem was getting pissed off. he kept sayin it was joelle. hahah.so we paid and decided to ciao. den prakkash say he wanted 2 buy stg random like kayar. hah. so we waited at the bicycle shop. zhen came over. so kong asked em wer's prakkash and prem. den hee said luk 4 urself. suddenly we heard " bang bang bang" haha.

we looked back. and saw them playin with those tiny guns tat shoot out bullets of smoke? hahah. they were sooo childish shooting everywer. ahahahhaha. but they sure made me laugh! and den prakkash said they cn play mafia wars with it..hahah..funi la he. we went our separate ways and went home. i had fun..thx u keshen!!! it was really awesome..i miss this times..it was unforgetable.=)

well that's all for now. read it and weep signin off..^^

update with my life..

helo helo...my lovely smilley bloggie..

well...sori i didnt update so long..but as if anyone reads my blog...ahhhahahahah... who cares..as long as i can let out my feelins somewer..im hapi.. why so many people dun update blog oso ar? haiyoyo kecewanya aku..haha..

hmm..well two days ago..i was really hyper and hapi..chatin off with my frens in msn n fb..haha..then my dad asked me to go off...as usual..so i said bye to my frens..and logged off..it was 12.30..i really couldnt sleep at all..i really cant sleep at all these days..i guess i have alot in my mind..i really need to talk to someone..my mood swings are driving me nuts..suddenly im sad..den im hapi..its pissing alot of ppl off..including myself..haiizzz..

anyways..continue..so..i got outside my room..and decided to sleep on the couch..suddenly my phone vibrated..it was kong..hahah..he seriously is a great pet bro..he's always nice and kind..we text till 2.30am...hahah..i was bored..and i lyk smsin kong..i duno why..wether im emo..or hapi..hvin him der..jz makes me smiile..and feel safe..

haha..i admit...i was jealous of a certain people..and tat made me emo all da time..but lately..i get to sit down and think..why do i gt jealous? its just so wrong..its my fault..and i started thinking clear about it..and i decided just to be more positive and just ignore it...i even gt to think clear about alot of other things..i always thought people...my frens..are all distaning frm me..and im nt tat close..but..i gt it off..and tried to be optimistic..and it did.

but..i just jinx it..and now..im emo again..haaiiizz..i dun care la..i just want 2 try my best to smile..like kong said..he's happier seeing me hapi...im sure other people are happier oso..but..i do it too over la..now..im just being annOying..haiizzz..im really sori.

i tink yea..i am annoying...and i always say sori..but i do ntg abt it..i just make it worst..trying to turn tat into stg positive..hope i can..haiizz..i just miss last year..so much..da photo wars..kklub..just hanging out with my frens..it was so awesome..but..i noe..i hv to let go of the past..and move on with my life..those memories..will jz remain in my mind..

uploaded a few pics onto facebook tat i drew..i felt so hapi..people commenting..just so hyper..people are so sweet la..and..l8tely..its raining alot..and i mean alot..but..the skies are clearing..and its soo beautiful..nature is just so amazing..i got so many pics of da sky..i remember..yesterday, while i was waiting for daa uncle to bring me home..i was at da bball court..with joelle..hahah..so she lied down on her bag..and she luked up 2 da sky..den she yank my shirt and ask me 2 lay down. i put my bad behind my head and did so..i luked up..and wat did i see? da most magnificent thing ever..the sky was so clear...only a few streaks of clouds in the sky..it was so peaceful..lying there...but den..i was kacau-ed by joelle..hahaha...we got up and took a few pics..it was awesome..

life is so weird lately..i've been called annoying..i hurt people..and den..its da opposite? like..saying im a great fren..and i help them..aaarrggh..i gues i got answer 2 my ques..da thg causing alll da problems im facing in my life..is actually..me..myself..=(

yea..they are right..all i noe 2 do is cry cry cry...sori sori sori..but i dont solve anythg.i really understand wat they mean by tat now..

gosh..im sounding emo again..haaa...im confused..i really need someone 2 talk to now..knowin i will just cause pain again..i rather nt..people..whoever is reading this..(i dun tink anyone is)..im sori 4 beiing annoying..n sayin sori all da time..bt tats me..im like tat..just hope u cn forgive me..for all da things i have done to hurt u..if there's anyway i cn make it up to u..tellme..and i will try my best to change..

thats all for now..

read it and weep..signin out!

my frens are awesome..

hihi bloggie!!! watsup?!?!=D

haaa....2day was so fun. carmen came over 2 my houz. she reacher at abt 11.30 sharp. haha..like i told her to. such a gud gal. ;) well, she passed me her pendrive...to show me marcus' song. and wooo...he's gud. not bad la. for a guy. haha.

carmen was so retarded..here i was..chatin wif my frens..and she cums and type crap 2 phil and prakkash..ahahahhahhaha...i couldnt stop laughin.. prakkash even called her sexy alien...hhahaahahh...he remembered. itt was soooo fun! started typing stuff like: snhoshoifhbovi...and..kfpisidb...phil actuali believe me wen i said tat was his name in french. hahah. my candy boy. :)

den we got into da car and wen to pavi. we lunched at "iciban boshi" taaadaaa!!!!!!!!!!!! lol. i ate like a pig as usual...=P...my orange juice was so sour. carmen's lime juice almost made me die. it was so damn freakin sour wei..hahhah. my face luk lyk tis...>,<...haha.

afta tat...went for shoppin. walkin around...we entered miss wateva and made sum keychains for each other. it was pretty. da price lagi pretty...gues hw much...rm99.67..xD..i tink i was gona die wei. hahah. but for my bff's its worth it. i dun mind.

walked around in times book shop..and talked about skul. i miss carmen sooo much. it was so nice to get to see her again. haha!! just being able to see her face since march..i really needed to treasure each counting momment with her.

haiz...it was getin late..and we needed to head home. i got into da car,,,and it started to rain!! haha. carmen's mum rang me and said they were outside my house.but we were oni half way home. so my mum decided 2 fetch carmen home. in da car..we talked and laugh soooo hard. it was just so enjoyable. =)

well..we arrived at setapak..and her houz was cumin near. i missed her so much..and da day just flew by. haiz. i quickly hugged her and said bye. gosh...seeing her walk out of tat door..a tear rolled down my face..but..i hope to see her again.

i wished chui yin came today. she would be da oni way 2 make 2day better. it was awesome. i really had so many flashbacks...of primary momments...my 2 bff's. i luv them so much. i reli hope they will stay hapi..and safe. hope to see dem soon...very soon. keeping my fingers crossed. hehe.^^

tats all for now..tc..( miss my frens) T.T

read it and weep signin out..

LIFE..

Life....i guess...there's different ways of describing it..uncountable ways...haha....:)
i was born on 18th feb 1995. went to CEC kindergarden. best years of my childhood. my 1st day of kindy..haha..i cried none stop. malu much? i loved my kindergarden, da swimming pool, da summercamp..computer class...it was greeat! wen i was six..i joined da skul band.and i played the triangle.hahah. my final concert was amazing. haaaaa^^ i didnt know so many ppl were in da same kindy wif me. keshen, aliff, nick, and dev 2. hahah. small world..small world. i rmbr wen i was 4...i used 2 cut my hair..to get attention..i noe..im weird..hahaha...
nw 7..i went to sjk(c) chong hwa..taadaa..went 2 1c. best class. everyone was so frenly, it wasnt hard 2 make frens. im lucky my sis is in tat skul. i loved the canteen in tat skul. it was like food paradise. they have EVERYTHING! std 3..met carmen ng, selina lian, lee jia hui, lim li vian, tang chui yin and lau jia cherng. my best frens. love them all. std 4 was no different. fun and more fun. i remember there was one time wen we were all so crazy wif da show X-men evolution. haha. and martin mystery. all nuts over it. i wana 2 be shadow cat! hahah. std 5, i had 2 leave my class..haiz...grades fell. went 2 5p. da people der were very nice. i made frens very fast. wel..still kept close 2 my bff's lyk chui yin carmen n jia hui. always rehat together. we had our "own" spot 2 sit. lol. std 6...aaahh yes. changes started. i fought wif my fren jia hui and livian. haizzz...it last for 6 months. we didnt talk at all. i missed them so much. but b4 da year ended, jia hui apologize and we were fine. graduation came along, practise hard for our performance. and had a blast at da concert. laz day of skul was sad, i cried so hard. i missed my frens...i hugged them all and told dem to take care. with one bow...its official...i graduated...:) classes i went to..1c, 2u, 3m, 4k, 5p, 6p. got to wear every pjk baju colour. red blue yellow and green. haha. lucky me.
durin da hols tat year...my skul had a skul trip 2 singapore. it was awesome. i had so much fun. it was da 1st tym i got 2 feel independant. i had 2 wake up everyday n boil da water 4 me and my roomates. i even made milo and cereal. haha. feel like a mum. but sum how, i kept on wakin up damn early. 4 am!! i gues i was just cold or nervous. took many pics for memories. da last day of da trip was at tis palace. haa..den we went 2 makan and wen 2 a candy store. it was awesome. haha. sat in da bus, sang songs. when we reached skul, we said our gudbyes 2 techers principal, and our frens. i will mis tis wonderful skul tat brought me so much joy. sjkc chong hwa..an amazing skul which brought me countless memories tat i will nvr forget.^^
well, noe..im currently goin 2 smktm. haha. rockin skul. b4 tat. went 2 another skul smk zon r 1. met tons of new frens. it was great. spend abt a month der. in da class 1 rajin. my god brother was in tat skul, he made it easier for me there. :) i remember my laz day in tat skul..my frens wan yee, pei xuan, and li wei brought me 2 da padang and we played like hell. it was so fun. ahahah. miss dem so much. oso...one of da closest frens i made der. low chia yin. she was an awesome fren. miss her la..
afta dat, 1st feb, friday, i went 2 smktm. i was nervous. my sis brought me and we went 2 sign up. da woman almost sent me 2 1k. bt, den she changed her mind. haiz. i gues sum thgs were meant 2 be. went 2 my class..it was moral class. my sis intro me 2 leesha. well, joelle, i really gt 2 thnk her. she was so warm and caring. she accepted me as a fren so quickly. yeeting 2. i rmbr, we always walk around da skul during rehat.talkin...both of them we tellin me abt da skul and da ppl in iit. fun fun. den i mixed with hemah's gang. it was interestin. still i stuck close 2 yeeting.
den joelle intro me 2 kesh and nigel. dey were so nice. afta a long time. dey used 2 ejek me lyk hell. but nw we're tight. sat wif sharmila on da 1st day. she intro me 2 naresha. den slowly...ppl jz came along. dev..steppie..tommy..den prakkash. and from dem i met many more, kong, sharlene, ruth, song shin, and much much more.
last year was so awesome. i had so much fun. during da hols, i would always go hang at prakkash's house 2 lepak. wif my so call gang-sharmila, naresha, keshen, prakkash and kong. we usually wen 2 kklub. chill der. it was just very enjoyable. i miss those momments so much. =(
2009 started. and i met even more frens. it was great. new students came, michelle and wong! haha...they sure changed much in my life. bt life is filled with changes. tsu ning left. miss her alot. jz recently we had another new gal..anndrea. haha, she's great. :) a new guy joined our gang. ooi jin chern. he fit in perfectly. ahahah. he is such an awesome fren. we went out, all of her, in a gang. it was great. lepakin at da padang..haa..it made me smile.^^
now...lately..things are changin...gud and bad...haiz. i just wished i can turn back time...to all da gud times. i gues i cant do anything. i miss da old times so much. haiz. but life is filled with changes..i hope things will turn out right. haha. i love all my frens. i hope no matter when and how they are? i hope they are doin well! god bless them all. :)

that's all for now. (read it and weep signin out)>,<

bored........

hihi bloggie!
well, nothing much has been going on in school, kinda boring these days. feel so annoyed with life la lately. hmm...so...jz talk abt stuff tat have been happening lately.
15 aug-i went 2 mtv world stage. it was freakin awesome! went with nigel, feel so hapi and lucky to be able 2 attend this special event. nigel u rock! haha. had a blast jumping around like a mad person with sharmila n my sis. martin from boys like gals b4 singing thunder aka best momment of all. it started 2 rain, so he said: i feel a rain cumin on, all it needs is some....thunder..' omg...it was like awesome wei! den afta da concert, we played with a jukebox at a cafe, it was so funi. we were simply pressing numbers and we gave up, so we walked off...suddenly:" my lips like sugar.." lol...da song sugar played. it was so damn funi wei. we 3 paused and turned arnd together. ahahaha..
well...in skul...fight with people. get back with people. its weird la...i guess i always have 2 fight with ppl. tis momment in life...i really feel da pressure rising between frenships..haiz...duno la.. if they wana fight...leet them la. all i cn do is just stand here.. and face the music.
i tink that hurtin other ppl is da wronf thing 2 do..but..i gues..haizzz...nvm...
i just hope things would turn out right...prayin for it.
thats all...for now...dad...lol..
bye.

my class is retarded..

~ 2H ~

haaaa....2day...damn funi la. da macha's ejek sharmila like hell wei. i think 1 of them like sharmila. i really do. whereever she go, some1 wil say : eee bleuk, socks! hahahah. scary la. like stalker. they actuali followed her and use their hand and block her wei. lucky she call out naresha name and when she came, dey all let go of sharmila. worried la, i hope 2day, she was ok. :)hmm...yea lo, normal day lo. ntg special. but we got to talk 2 keshen alot. we spend time talking and asking each other abt each other. i know...we're all lame. haha. den keshen ask me whats his laz name, me and sharmila was like: uuh, carissa. u ask la, dun layan kesh. hahahah. kesian em. i conteng bubu's hand. hahah. i write bubu oni. den he ask me add more. so i conteng lyk hell. hah. padan muke. :P we talked about u 2. haha. everyone la. zhen, prakkash, naresha.den we talk about ong, we laugh like shit wei. that was damn funi! you oso know right hee very shy with gals. so my fren, syamim, she tk tahan. cuz he always luk away when she say hi. so tham n ravern ask me and sharmila 2 say hi. but he still tk jawab! so, tham said:"hey lets ask elliza go flirt wif him.." btw, eliza very gila gal in my glas. so we went 2 elliza and ask her. she was laughin. so we went 2 sit down. den ravern said: elliza, now!!elliza got up, she walk over to ong. like damn flirty wei. we laughin lyk hell ady. den she sat on ong's table, she fold her leg lyk tryin 2 luk sexy.. we all laughin till gona pee! goh even fell of da chair laughin!!! den she go touch em and was lyk: 'hiiiiii oonnnnggg!" and guess wat? he still luk away!!! omg!. we all were like...that proves it...he is gay. ahahahahahahhaha. XDden lagi worst. tham!!! taadaaa. go act lyk gal, and sat on ong lap. den he face his butt and em and lyk, hey baby! u so sexy. we laugh lyk shit wei.!! den ravern go pull his pants up 2 show his sexy legs. hahahahaha!!!!!!. im tink i was gona die wei! haha..my class rocks la. 2 harmoni rocks!!! ^^

missing da good times..

you know wat? haizz...i really miss da old times i had.. bad or gud..i still miss them all..

last year..hanging out with salina hemah da twins..and yeeting. i used to be damn close to her..esp. her. and now..i don't even rehat with her animore. it hurts me to see her everytime. i do miss her alot..and i know i have hurt her badly..but all i can do now is just try to make her happy wenever i can. hope it works..she even wrote poems about me..looking at those words..it really made me cry..i feel so bad..i hope i can make it up to her..

last year was da best...when all of us were in one block. it was so much easier to hang with my gang. now i have to walk over to another block..and hide from norliah.. haiz. everytime solat..i just had to walk over to da opposite side and find kong and prakkash and nareshaa. now..its just like, we were all meant to be apart..

laz year we all used to lepak at kklub and prakkash's house. we were all so close. we never separated and stuck together. this year..things started changing. we had a new person in our gang..ooi jin chern. we weren't tat close last year cause he and prakkash gt probs. but now dey are like bros. damn close. that i didnt mind at all. then we got a new student..michelle..who changed many lives..den ppl in our gang started fallin for each other..ok...still can tahan..

used to be freaking close to keshen...now..he's closer to da guys...wel..cant blame em. den prakkash too..cant blame em either. got damn close to zhen zhen. he was so sweet. i remembered he always ejek me. like one time..i told em i rock! den he said: i dun fully agree wif u on tat. u are a rock..bt u dun rock..get it? he is just so random. he was great in our gang. making us all hapi. kong too..he stayed da same. lucky me! ^^

during the mid year..things started to change...worse and worst! i wasnt tat close to nigel anymore. but at least he still tells me secrets. and once i fought with kong. i cant blame em..i was so emo and rude. he's a great pal, and he forgave me..but after that, i fought with zhen. it seems like no matter what i do..i will have to lose somebody.. i started being negative again. i cried more often. its hard..cause..sometimes when you are so close to someone...and sudenli den jz go so far away from you..its really painful for me..i rememberd about a month ago..i had an emotional meltdown. i cried for an hour and a half none stop. i just couldnt stop..da pain was so sharp. my heart was breaking..

and now..im not tat close to joelle..im changing into a monster! talkin about other people..not being as nice as i was b4. i feel so selfish! i just miss hanging out in a gang again. no pain..just hapiness and laughter.

last friday..we got to go to prakkash house to hang out. 6 of us. like dy old times. it was so fun. i dun tink i ever laugh tat much b4. kesh and sharmila was so lame.:P but damn funi. i loved that momment so much..i wish i could go through it again.. though zhen wasn't there..it was fun^^

i miss zhen sooo much. i mis joelle too. everyone!!! including da old me. where have all these people gone too. everyone luks da same..but they are like strangers to me now.. giving me da cold shoulder..i hate that so much.

life seems so empty now...i try to fill it up..but ppl keep making da hapiness flow out again n again. i feel like giving up. i noe i have to accept da fact that i cant keep all my frens wif me. but i wish i could. i really miss them all so much..i miss you all..please come back:(

that's all for now..bye.