a poem for a friend..

wow..when through my old blog..and found this poem..very nice..enjoy..=)


poem for a friend

FRENS FOREVA, WRITTEN WITH A PEN, SEALED WIF A KISS,

IF U R MY FREN, PLEASE ANSWER THIS,

ARE WE FRENS OR ARE WE NOT, U TOLD ME ONCE BUT I FORGOT,

SO TEL ME NOW AND TELL ME TRUE, SO I CAN SAY IM HERE FOR YOU,

OF ALL DA PEOPLE THAT I HAVE MET, YOUR THE ONES I WONT FORGET,

AND IF I DIE BEFORE YOU DO, I'LL GO TO HEAVEN AND WAIT FOR U,

SO STAY MY FREN, N ALWAYS DO, SO I CAN SAY THX 2 U,

OUR FRENSHIP MUZ START, CZ U ALL WILL ALYWAYS B IN MY HEART!!! <3

dedicated to the ones in my heart..my friends..^^

READ IT AND WEEP..signing out=P

aiyoyo..

helo helo blog blog!!!

wel..update life again...sori so long dun write...me very da malas...=P paiseh...will try to write more..=)

wel..da macha's...da so called big indian group of boys in me skul...i reli reli get damn annoyed with dem..haizz. they keep buggin my fren sharmila....as her fren..i reli feel so hurt to see stuff happen to her.=( they do stuff tat are seriously rude and mean. i feel like giving them a tight slap and tellin them how hurtful they are!

so on thurs or wed..im nt sure..we had to hantar our boooks back. so helped out me teacher..and went down. so sharmila n i, along with kishini tanussha and yeeeting sat down 2 rest.. and to my horrow...here came da annoying guys i love to hate..T.T so da so call leader of da gang..whose name i malas to mention.. sat beside sharmila, and grabbed da purse my sis gave her as a bday present..and her money. i got so damn pissed seriously. i was like wat da hell? and dey are total pervs...reli reli..dey reli dare to touch you..even if u are a girl. sometimess..girlschool x seem tat bad..any hu..sharmila tried to fight back n grab her stuff. typical her. n da ass**** leader splashed water on her. that reli pissed me off..i wanted to slap em so bad!

lucky kevin was here...so he asked me to get upstairs wif sharmila b4 dey do worst.. she ran up. but she wanted her money...she should just stop chilling and take care of herself laaa..stuborn..wat cn we do.? so anyways..kevin bein sweet offered to pay back wat the macha's did. so sweet.. so rashvin ask me to wait..cz dey will give the money bak. so i stood on da teacher's office level and w8 wif kevin..

i looked at rashvin...de turned too another direction..and saw dev!! he was waving with his usual smile..kevin asked em to come up..i was tryin to tell em abt da macha's..but he x hear. hahah. so hel ran up. so he asked wassup? so i told em da whole frustratin story. n he asked me to follow em go k class. at da same tym sharmila came down. so dev say jz cum wif em. kevin said no..cz da macha's r dangerous..bt dev x care and he led me down da stairs.. i walked bhind sharmila..hoping they would stop. but once dey reach da pondok bacaan..dey gave her bak money..but wen she took it..dey x let go..she got scared and bent down..(which i tink made it worst..but hey she was scared)..dev grabbed me and said: cn u jz gt out of there n cum? i grabbed sharmila..n she took a separate ways..dev jz held my shoulder and brought me along..he told sharmila to go to keith nw. lucky he was der!! so sharmila told keith da whole story. i turned around n realise dev wen up..=(

den norma came down ans scolded us..so we had to go class.. well.. da next day, we talked to my beloved teacher seyamala...she gave us great advice..i reli reli was so thnkful to her..god bless her..an awesome teacher..

well..that momment wen dev was der...he really seemed like he knew what he was doing. he seemed so cool and calm. i felt so safe when he was theere. like a spark of my hero..cheezy..but yea..its reli true..i felt so warm n lucky to have em der. and tinkin nw...i tink he x scared cz he has a black bellt in karate or taekondo? hahha.. he rocks. i dunno hv to thnk em la. he x mind..but i reli do. i owe him one..=)

well..days are normal. we play games like crazy! it was soooo dammmnnnn funnnn!! ahaha...luv my frens la.. annd at night..kal told me dey wen jj x me..n apologized. well..im reli nt mad at her at all.. but i felt ditched laa. im used to it.. n im nt blaming her at all. haiz..feelin alone sad depress and left out..dunno who my frens are anymore la..

thnkful to da ones who are here..jealously taking over me..and im reli scared to get close to my frens lately...cz..i tink once i gt too close...n dey jz suddenly leave..n go so far..n i just gt hurt..haizz..i have no comments..

read it and weep signin out..(emo..zzz)

to realize the value of time..

to realise the value of one year,

ask a studdent who has failed a final exam,

to realise the value of one month,

ask a mother who has given birth to a premature baby,

to realise the value of one week,

ask an editor of a weekly newspaper,

to realise the value of one hour,

ask the lovers who are waiting to meet,

to realise the value of one minute,

ask the person who has missed the train or bus,

to realise the value of one second,

ask a person who has just survived an accident,

time waits for no one,

treasure everymomment you have...

remember..

yesterday is history,

tommorow is a mystery,

today is a gift,

that's why it is called the present

mooncake festival=)

hihi bloggie!!! =D

well mooncake festival was yesterday..a celebration of chinese culture involving mooncake eating and lantern carrying..and night wen streets are filled with children with their beloved lanterns..lighting the streets with fun and laughter.=)

i have never played lantern for 4 years..i miss it..it was one of my fav days of the year as a child. well, on friday night..2nd oct..school finished and i hopped home as jeremy and joelle walked me out to my car. they are such great frens..=) i ate up..and called up daddy. he was coming late..== usual. so i called everyone 2 make sure they were going with me. and naresha said everyone was coming but zhen tk reply her. called em and he said he x cum. haiizz. well. da fun must go on!! i packed my lanterns..felt childish..cz we had cartoons on our lanterns. hahaha.

went to prakkash house and saw keith and ryan! haha. said hi and called up kesh n kong to ask where they were, they said they were'nt coming. and tat made me very very sad. haiz. we hopped on out and started our lantern walk. i had 6 lanterns with me and two boxes of candles. and also a lighter da shape of a ball. hahaha. keith and ryan actually wanted to join!! so keith took da ultraman lantern and ryan took another doraemon one like prakkash. naresha got pikaciu and sharmila gt hello kitty. and my blue lantern was mashi maro!! weee!^^ we started walkin den naresha got a phone call, it was keshen!! he said he was here! we turned around and there they were...kong and keshen. keith passed his lantern to kong and ryan passed his to kesh.

so we continued to walk. we passed philip's house and i told kong why don't we ajak phil too? so he called em up and he said ok. we told da others to go 1st. kong and keshen teman me outside phil's house. he came out and my lantern fell down. malu much? hahah. we talked for a while and decided to walk up da hill to meet up with the others.

da four of us cracked so many jokes along the way. it was so fun. though i was da oni gal there..da guys made me feel comfortable..=)..so we passed this big house which was like damn big and nice. we sat down to rest. phil kept insisting i buy tat house sumday. hahah. we continue walkin up..and boy did it get dark!!! we passed to clives den we were almost to da peak and we saw da others sitting by da mountain sidde. oh my god! da view was amazing! we sat down and enjoyed da view while ryan keith and prakkash threw mercun everywhere. haha. da hill was steep..phil and keshen keep joking about fallin over. it was awesome.

our lanterns was already blown out! malas to light again la. den phil and keshen started askin whose taller..haha..it was so funi..tiptoe-in to increasing there height..hhaha... keith and ryan had 2 go, so we said goodbye and continued our trip. we cont uphill. we pass by this house which had chairs and giant mushrooms outside. we all sat down and got a group shot. it was damn nice. we rested and joked more. afther 15 mins, we decided to go bak down. on the way kesh lost his earphone cover thingy..haha..our whole gang bend over to help and finally we got it! but he dropped it again! finally sharmila found it and we went down. it was so funny la.

we sent philip home and thanked him for coming. it was amazing..and he made it better! thnk phil! and so we went to prakkash house and rested. naresha n sharmila went home. which left me da only gal again. ==haha. da guys were damn tired and fell asleep. haha. poor things. my dad came and i went home.

BOY I HAD FUN!!! thanks for all those who came!! happy mooncake festival again!! ^^

read it and weep signing out! =)

boring laaa...=P

here i am..again..siting here..in front of my comp..hahah..bored..as usual...darnnnn...

well update update! yesterday..we celebrated my dad's bday! we had a blast. we rented out a room with a tv and karoake sistem. we were singing our hearts out. hangin out with family seriously makes a smile appear on my face. esp my clowny father!! hahah. my cousinf frm L.A. came down 2 visit. alana and greg. along with my aunty munmun and uncle alan. well, through the months...my uncle danny has been speacially made a video for my daddy. entitled.."portrait of a joker" hahah....suitable for him. we laughed alot throughout the video as it is really really funny. esp during da bday wishes. i was the camera girl tat day, haddling my uncle's camera. i felt like a pro...ahahha..so i just snap shots of my family and da kids running arnd and stuff. well, during da video, i wanted 2 get sum gud shots of dad. so i zoomed in. and guess what? i saw tears in his eyes...that hit me! a tear rolled down my face...i felt so touched. haaiiizz...i hope my daddy is fine and hapi always.=) so we revealed da fantastic cake my mum bought. it was a football...which was really really awesome!!. hahah...we headed back to my house and chillaxed..ahaha..wel..everyone left at 12.30...kinda late for da kids i must say..hehe. and you know what? i had sooo much fun..but i din bring my camera! =( omg! i sux wei...haizz.. but no matter wat,,these memories will always remain in my heart. happy birthday again daddy!!

hmm..on friday we had a holiday. so keshen said we were goin 2 makan at tiam fatt da day before. so i set an alarn clock at 9 am. checked my phone..ntg. 10..ntg. 10.30..still ntg! so i text em. tk reply...call em..din answer!!.getting on my nerves!! so he replied da msg and said we cant go. den i was like wth? haha. den kong rang me up and said they were goin now! den i was like: wow..i just woke up..hahaa. lucky i was dressed! so i told my nanny and she said we had 2 walk there. ==..perfect..so grabbed my bad and walked. i was almost der wen the skul was almost visible. saw some figures there. i saw prakkash 1st. den he yelled! ok...definately prakkash. hahah. saw joelle there. thank god!! i x da oni gal. haha. zhen kesh kong and prem joined us..and we were off. so we found a spot and sat down. ordered our drinks and just talked. haha. da guys talked about stuff me and joelle had no idea abt. hahah. den prakkash started being retarded. as usual.=) he said..:' ok..i see ok..i see oni 6 people here.." den he pointed at everyone one by one. "you..you..you..he skipped me..you you and you!" den he said hi 2 everyone. and not 2 me. hahah. den he grabbed all da guys over and whispered in their ear stg. i looked at joelle. and we said..: he's playin.." i gt a text frm kong sayin he's jkin, hahah..too bad prakkash!! then they were talkin very softly. then suddenly..all of them looked at me at the same time!! ahahaha ...they look so funny!! so joelle lend my phone 2 play. da LG one. then bubu and kkb keep callin me! wth? hahah. so i called backk. lame...as usual. den joelle and i said we should miss call prem. haha. so we did. he was acting so over wei. askin : who da hell is this person kong? i lukked at kong and gave em da look nt 2 tell. den i just ask prem..letme see..maybe i noe..i luked at da number..hiding my laugh. haha. so den he ask prakkash zhen and bubu. and all of them started laughin like crap!! hahahaha...it was so funny. prem looked so blur. kesian em. den zhen said : eh ping..its tat person right? kong just laughed and said yes. prem was getting pissed off. he kept sayin it was joelle. hahah.so we paid and decided to ciao. den prakkash say he wanted 2 buy stg random like kayar. hah. so we waited at the bicycle shop. zhen came over. so kong asked em wer's prakkash and prem. den hee said luk 4 urself. suddenly we heard " bang bang bang" haha.

we looked back. and saw them playin with those tiny guns tat shoot out bullets of smoke? hahah. they were sooo childish shooting everywer. ahahahhaha. but they sure made me laugh! and den prakkash said they cn play mafia wars with it..hahah..funi la he. we went our separate ways and went home. i had fun..thx u keshen!!! it was really awesome..i miss this times..it was unforgetable.=)

well that's all for now. read it and weep signin off..^^

update with my life..

helo helo...my lovely smilley bloggie..

well...sori i didnt update so long..but as if anyone reads my blog...ahhhahahahah... who cares..as long as i can let out my feelins somewer..im hapi.. why so many people dun update blog oso ar? haiyoyo kecewanya aku..haha..

hmm..well two days ago..i was really hyper and hapi..chatin off with my frens in msn n fb..haha..then my dad asked me to go off...as usual..so i said bye to my frens..and logged off..it was 12.30..i really couldnt sleep at all..i really cant sleep at all these days..i guess i have alot in my mind..i really need to talk to someone..my mood swings are driving me nuts..suddenly im sad..den im hapi..its pissing alot of ppl off..including myself..haiizzz..

anyways..continue..so..i got outside my room..and decided to sleep on the couch..suddenly my phone vibrated..it was kong..hahah..he seriously is a great pet bro..he's always nice and kind..we text till 2.30am...hahah..i was bored..and i lyk smsin kong..i duno why..wether im emo..or hapi..hvin him der..jz makes me smiile..and feel safe..

haha..i admit...i was jealous of a certain people..and tat made me emo all da time..but lately..i get to sit down and think..why do i gt jealous? its just so wrong..its my fault..and i started thinking clear about it..and i decided just to be more positive and just ignore it...i even gt to think clear about alot of other things..i always thought people...my frens..are all distaning frm me..and im nt tat close..but..i gt it off..and tried to be optimistic..and it did.

but..i just jinx it..and now..im emo again..haaiiizz..i dun care la..i just want 2 try my best to smile..like kong said..he's happier seeing me hapi...im sure other people are happier oso..but..i do it too over la..now..im just being annOying..haiizzz..im really sori.

i tink yea..i am annoying...and i always say sori..but i do ntg abt it..i just make it worst..trying to turn tat into stg positive..hope i can..haiizz..i just miss last year..so much..da photo wars..kklub..just hanging out with my frens..it was so awesome..but..i noe..i hv to let go of the past..and move on with my life..those memories..will jz remain in my mind..

uploaded a few pics onto facebook tat i drew..i felt so hapi..people commenting..just so hyper..people are so sweet la..and..l8tely..its raining alot..and i mean alot..but..the skies are clearing..and its soo beautiful..nature is just so amazing..i got so many pics of da sky..i remember..yesterday, while i was waiting for daa uncle to bring me home..i was at da bball court..with joelle..hahah..so she lied down on her bag..and she luked up 2 da sky..den she yank my shirt and ask me 2 lay down. i put my bad behind my head and did so..i luked up..and wat did i see? da most magnificent thing ever..the sky was so clear...only a few streaks of clouds in the sky..it was so peaceful..lying there...but den..i was kacau-ed by joelle..hahaha...we got up and took a few pics..it was awesome..

life is so weird lately..i've been called annoying..i hurt people..and den..its da opposite? like..saying im a great fren..and i help them..aaarrggh..i gues i got answer 2 my ques..da thg causing alll da problems im facing in my life..is actually..me..myself..=(

yea..they are right..all i noe 2 do is cry cry cry...sori sori sori..but i dont solve anythg.i really understand wat they mean by tat now..

gosh..im sounding emo again..haaa...im confused..i really need someone 2 talk to now..knowin i will just cause pain again..i rather nt..people..whoever is reading this..(i dun tink anyone is)..im sori 4 beiing annoying..n sayin sori all da time..bt tats me..im like tat..just hope u cn forgive me..for all da things i have done to hurt u..if there's anyway i cn make it up to u..tellme..and i will try my best to change..

thats all for now..

read it and weep..signin out!

my frens are awesome..

hihi bloggie!!! watsup?!?!=D

haaa....2day was so fun. carmen came over 2 my houz. she reacher at abt 11.30 sharp. haha..like i told her to. such a gud gal. ;) well, she passed me her pendrive...to show me marcus' song. and wooo...he's gud. not bad la. for a guy. haha.

carmen was so retarded..here i was..chatin wif my frens..and she cums and type crap 2 phil and prakkash..ahahahhahhaha...i couldnt stop laughin.. prakkash even called her sexy alien...hhahaahahh...he remembered. itt was soooo fun! started typing stuff like: snhoshoifhbovi...and..kfpisidb...phil actuali believe me wen i said tat was his name in french. hahah. my candy boy. :)

den we got into da car and wen to pavi. we lunched at "iciban boshi" taaadaaa!!!!!!!!!!!! lol. i ate like a pig as usual...=P...my orange juice was so sour. carmen's lime juice almost made me die. it was so damn freakin sour wei..hahhah. my face luk lyk tis...>,<...haha.

afta tat...went for shoppin. walkin around...we entered miss wateva and made sum keychains for each other. it was pretty. da price lagi pretty...gues hw much...rm99.67..xD..i tink i was gona die wei. hahah. but for my bff's its worth it. i dun mind.

walked around in times book shop..and talked about skul. i miss carmen sooo much. it was so nice to get to see her again. haha!! just being able to see her face since march..i really needed to treasure each counting momment with her.

haiz...it was getin late..and we needed to head home. i got into da car,,,and it started to rain!! haha. carmen's mum rang me and said they were outside my house.but we were oni half way home. so my mum decided 2 fetch carmen home. in da car..we talked and laugh soooo hard. it was just so enjoyable. =)

well..we arrived at setapak..and her houz was cumin near. i missed her so much..and da day just flew by. haiz. i quickly hugged her and said bye. gosh...seeing her walk out of tat door..a tear rolled down my face..but..i hope to see her again.

i wished chui yin came today. she would be da oni way 2 make 2day better. it was awesome. i really had so many flashbacks...of primary momments...my 2 bff's. i luv them so much. i reli hope they will stay hapi..and safe. hope to see dem soon...very soon. keeping my fingers crossed. hehe.^^

tats all for now..tc..( miss my frens) T.T

read it and weep signin out..