in line...

hey bloggie..wow..its been long since i've last updated...sorry...didnt have anythg to rant about...and maybe i just didnt want to? well whateversss..so here's and update? enjoyyy:)
so yea..alot of shit has happened since i've last updated...alot of rumours goin round and well i feel like givingg everyone a piece of my mind...bt well i realise there's no point causee it'll make things worse. i just don't get those people who spread rumours? or backstabbers? its just pathetic sometimes cause i feel as if..whatever i've said to them were twisted and told to othrs in a completely different way that it was heard. it sucks the most when the ones that spread it were the ones that you trusted..well at least..you thought you did...

jeremy said its a part of growing up..but well..it sucks. i just don't understand why sometimes people cant just mind their own business and f*** off? sorry for the language..but lately...ever since my bday incident..i just feel like..there's no point. trust trust trust...i lay it on you people and why do i get? an asshole ruining our frenship by doin shit to me and my loved ones? backstabbing me and telling people bad stuff about me which isnt true? hurting the ones that i care about and so on bulshit.

people..why cant you guys for once just get a freaking life if u have none..till u have to come ruin others'. if u have an opinion..sure..talk i dont give a damn...but why spread it to others? do you want to ruin others' lives? so you could feel better about yourself? well damn..you really are so pathetic and stupid. open your eyes...or ur mind and try putting yourself in the person you're backstabbin's shoes. do u want your frens to talk about u? but maybe i guess...you people arent even frens? what do i look like im naive and stupid? im being nice to you guys..cause yea..you're my friends..and what do i hear? you people sayin im fake? and im a b***ch? what? i really don't geddit? does it amuse you people bringing others down? what happen to having a heart? i guess you people have none.

i know my mistakes..you people don't have to remind me..you people dont noe how guilty i feel K? so dont come running along..telling others not to trust me if you guys dont..sorry..but what have i done to you that u have to come menyibuk to my personal life? i've done ntg to you people..seriously...if u say u're afraid i've hurt your frens..den ok..sure...go protect them..instead of saying stuff like....dont be stupid....she hurt ppl before..she'll hurt you too. or u shouldnt trust her or wtv shit you guys say k? my probs between me and him..its stays between me and him..let me be for god's sake? you people are making my life miserable when i've done ntg to u?! so why...my gawd WHY?

sorry to YOU...for hurting you...and i dunno do u listen to what othrs say..but if u do..den i have ntg to say..maybe you contributed? bt i dont care..cause i've told u many times..but u just don't seem to listen that i'm sorry and i miss u. but..its ok..go on and hate me like the others k? i dont freaking blame u. cause..all i do is HURT you right? DISAPPOINT you right? its ok...go on and feel that way..i've said alot of things..but its pointless cause you're stubborn..and well..maybe that's why thing turned out this way. you just don't understand..i might not know how hurt you are..but i cn see it..and i felt it once..and try putting urself in my position knowing you've hurt someone u once loved dearly...dat doesnt believe u either..so yea...im sorry? but once again..its up to u to think..

and to mr KNOCKS...i noe ur paranoid. but imma do my best to make u happy. sorry for hurting u. i dunno what to say..i really dunno cause u don't get convinced cause u say u see stuff dat make u paranoid..den maybe me talkin to othr guys hurts u..do u want me to stop talkin to all males? i cn u noe...u will say yea right..but yea..whats the point? i dun want a man that is like that..and i noe ur nt tat kind. i noe ur fragile and u gt hurt once...but freaking listen to me...i might have hurt u in jan..but ily now..i do..so why why WHY THE HELL focus on me leavin u? do u wan me to really leave u to be sastified? if ok..den i think one day i would..but i wish you knew i nvr wanted to. its like history repeating itself..and this time..i reallt want things to work out between us. i want to be happy wit u...i do..but if ur paranoid ways continues..i'll just give up k? just noe that i love u..i have ntg else to say..cause sometimes its better to say nothing at all..cause there's no point if ppl x listen:)

so to those backstabbers out there..get the F**K away and shut up:)

to the man i've hurt last year i apologize...and just pls forgive me? isit too much to ask for? if yes..than..no point remainin frens if u always remind me abt the pass and the shit i've done..no comments.

and to knocks....i love u..pls jz rmbr that..and well u promised not to be paranoid..i hope u dont..but if u do..i hv ntg to say anymore k?

thanks for ur understanding of ntg people..u all rock:D

hey Knocks..this one's for you:)

NOTHING CAN COME BETWEEN US<3

she is not candy,

but she is so sweeeeeet!!!!

your love came in handy..

ow you make me love u bit by bit

she is not my lover

but she is so sweet..

don't worry babe just hold on tighter..loves meant to last forever=)

just like the rain pouring on my head

thinkin abt u...cant wake up frm bed?..

well no matter wht u hve said

i wud rather die for u then c u dead

boy how could you stay so strong..

for i have hurt you for so long?

How are you sure that hurting me is right or wrong,

for all we know it mite be just a love song?

you changed my world with a blink of an eye?

And tht is stg i cant reli deny

there is nothing i can say to lie

cz you make me sore so high.

kaleidescope colours flow in the wind..

im searchin for ya babe..where ya been?

Wht about in the dustbin

or wherevea u hve searched that i cant be seen ?

when loves gone...

just carry on..

But how can u move on

wen there some sort of bond?

you shot my down with your smile

making me go the extra mile..

but i cant smile for u anymore more baby..

this is driving me crazy

how do i say the words that i cannot find

how do i say all the things in my mind

how do i say wen the words are too few

how do i say how much i truly love you?

how can i tink of letting go of you

wen my love for u is so true

hey baby..hush dont say a thing..

please be my queen wen im a king

baby..this aint my last gudbye..

please don’t say gudbye..for I will cry

together baby..we will fly..

fly so high..till we reach the sky..<3

Imtf knocks..143

a word which can describe however u feel..is AWESOME:D

so i've been looking through many many quotes on google lately...and well....i found alot that are quite close to how i feel sometimes...so yea..enjoy;)

People overcome their fear of rejection every day, finding the courage to say "I love you." But what about the very real fear of ruining a friendship?

How wondrous it is to realize that a best friend is also the person we love...

Time spent with a friend can easily become more than just time spent with a friend.

Don't walk in front of me, I may not follow.
Don't walk behind me, I may not lead.
Just walk beside me and be my friend.

"The most beautiful discovery true friends make is that they can grow separately without growing apart. "

What you need to know about the past is that no matter what has happened, it has all worked together to bring you to this very moment. And this is the moment you can choose to make everything new. Right now.

One cannot and must not try to erase the past merely because it does not fit the present.

Jealousy is always born with love, but does not always die with it

To be trusted is a greater compliment than being loved.

Trust is like a vase...once it's broken, though you can fix it..the vase will never be the same again.


that's all for now..im getting emo==...ttfn:D

SMILES ALWAYS

a thought ...

Often times we say goodbye to the person we love without wanting to. Though that doesn’t mean that we've stopped loving them or we've stopped to care. Sometimes goodbye is a painful way to say I love you..<3

je tre tre tre desole...Parfois je voudrais vous poser, comment êtes-vous? "comme nous le faisions .. mais je sais que les choses ne sont pas plus la même ..

te regarder chanter aujourd'hui .. me fait pleurer .. Je suis tellement désolé pour tout ce que j'ai fait pour vous faire du mal .. vous ne pourriez pas voir ce que c'est? mais ce que nous avions était grande .. c'était juste des choses tristes n'a pas fonctionné entre nous ..


'rentabilité' et 'l'homme qui ne peut être proposée' a été une belle chanson .. vous avez utilisé pour la chanter pour moi:) Je me souviens. et je sais que vous n'allez pas me croire quand je dis que vous manquez. mais merci pour les souvenirs.

J'espère que vous avez déplacé sans moi. vous méritez un mister vie heureuse "bonbon" appelant:) hahha. prendre soin. sourit toujours .. et oui .. j'ai été enchantée de vous rencontrer aussi .. désolé et merci. au revoir.

I always knew looking back on the tears would make me laugh, but I never knew looking back on the laughs would make me cry :(


>bonbon>>tt<<

ow maiiii:D

don't you know who you are? you're my shooting star:D

KNOCKS SAYSSSSSS THISSSS...

each nite i ask the stars up above,

why must i be a teenager in love?

one day i feel so happy

next day i feel so sad

i guess i have tonite

each nite i ask the stars up above

why do i love her so much


p.s. though i might not be able to offer you as much as u offer me..i offer u nothing less the the world..ily..thanks for sticking by me:)
IMTF

lurveeeeeeee quote

“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.”

nice quote;)

if you're the one...

heard this song when i was a little girl...and love it till now:)..<3

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p3bFOT1e-AU&feature=related

If you're not the one, then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one, then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine, then why does your heart return my call?
If you you are not mine, would I have the strength to stand at all?

I never know what the future brings
But I know you're here with me now
We'll make it through and I hope
You are the one I share my life with

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it,
I don't understand If I'm not made for you,
then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there anyway that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you, then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you, then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me, then why does this distance name my life?
If you're not for me, then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through and I hope
You are the one I share my life with

And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray that you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it,
I don't understand If I'm not made for you,
then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there anyway that I can stay in your arms?

'Cause I miss your body and soul so strong
That it takes my breath away
And I breath you into my heart
And I pray for the strength to stand today

'Cause I love you whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And though my heart is by your side

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it,
I don't understand If I'm not made for you,
then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there anyway that I can stay in your arms?
~END~

i bet you have no idea how i feel towards you..but if i could tell you anything..it would be this song..except the wife part><..lols. anyways, it doesn't matter how i feel anymore...cause i know things will never work out. thanks for the memories..imtf<3>