my frens are awesome..

hihi bloggie!!! watsup?!?!=D

haaa....2day was so fun. carmen came over 2 my houz. she reacher at abt 11.30 sharp. haha..like i told her to. such a gud gal. ;) well, she passed me her pendrive...to show me marcus' song. and wooo...he's gud. not bad la. for a guy. haha.

carmen was so retarded..here i was..chatin wif my frens..and she cums and type crap 2 phil and prakkash..ahahahhahhaha...i couldnt stop laughin.. prakkash even called her sexy alien...hhahaahahh...he remembered. itt was soooo fun! started typing stuff like: snhoshoifhbovi...and..kfpisidb...phil actuali believe me wen i said tat was his name in french. hahah. my candy boy. :)

den we got into da car and wen to pavi. we lunched at "iciban boshi" taaadaaa!!!!!!!!!!!! lol. i ate like a pig as usual...=P...my orange juice was so sour. carmen's lime juice almost made me die. it was so damn freakin sour wei..hahhah. my face luk lyk tis...>,<...haha.

afta tat...went for shoppin. walkin around...we entered miss wateva and made sum keychains for each other. it was pretty. da price lagi pretty...gues hw much...rm99.67..xD..i tink i was gona die wei. hahah. but for my bff's its worth it. i dun mind.

walked around in times book shop..and talked about skul. i miss carmen sooo much. it was so nice to get to see her again. haha!! just being able to see her face since march..i really needed to treasure each counting momment with her.

haiz...it was getin late..and we needed to head home. i got into da car,,,and it started to rain!! haha. carmen's mum rang me and said they were outside my house.but we were oni half way home. so my mum decided 2 fetch carmen home. in da car..we talked and laugh soooo hard. it was just so enjoyable. =)

well..we arrived at setapak..and her houz was cumin near. i missed her so much..and da day just flew by. haiz. i quickly hugged her and said bye. gosh...seeing her walk out of tat door..a tear rolled down my face..but..i hope to see her again.

i wished chui yin came today. she would be da oni way 2 make 2day better. it was awesome. i really had so many flashbacks...of primary momments...my 2 bff's. i luv them so much. i reli hope they will stay hapi..and safe. hope to see dem soon...very soon. keeping my fingers crossed. hehe.^^

tats all for now..tc..( miss my frens) T.T

read it and weep signin out..

LIFE..

Life....i guess...there's different ways of describing it..uncountable ways...haha....:)
i was born on 18th feb 1995. went to CEC kindergarden. best years of my childhood. my 1st day of kindy..haha..i cried none stop. malu much? i loved my kindergarden, da swimming pool, da summercamp..computer class...it was greeat! wen i was six..i joined da skul band.and i played the triangle.hahah. my final concert was amazing. haaaaa^^ i didnt know so many ppl were in da same kindy wif me. keshen, aliff, nick, and dev 2. hahah. small world..small world. i rmbr wen i was 4...i used 2 cut my hair..to get attention..i noe..im weird..hahaha...
nw 7..i went to sjk(c) chong hwa..taadaa..went 2 1c. best class. everyone was so frenly, it wasnt hard 2 make frens. im lucky my sis is in tat skul. i loved the canteen in tat skul. it was like food paradise. they have EVERYTHING! std 3..met carmen ng, selina lian, lee jia hui, lim li vian, tang chui yin and lau jia cherng. my best frens. love them all. std 4 was no different. fun and more fun. i remember there was one time wen we were all so crazy wif da show X-men evolution. haha. and martin mystery. all nuts over it. i wana 2 be shadow cat! hahah. std 5, i had 2 leave my class..haiz...grades fell. went 2 5p. da people der were very nice. i made frens very fast. wel..still kept close 2 my bff's lyk chui yin carmen n jia hui. always rehat together. we had our "own" spot 2 sit. lol. std 6...aaahh yes. changes started. i fought wif my fren jia hui and livian. haizzz...it last for 6 months. we didnt talk at all. i missed them so much. but b4 da year ended, jia hui apologize and we were fine. graduation came along, practise hard for our performance. and had a blast at da concert. laz day of skul was sad, i cried so hard. i missed my frens...i hugged them all and told dem to take care. with one bow...its official...i graduated...:) classes i went to..1c, 2u, 3m, 4k, 5p, 6p. got to wear every pjk baju colour. red blue yellow and green. haha. lucky me.
durin da hols tat year...my skul had a skul trip 2 singapore. it was awesome. i had so much fun. it was da 1st tym i got 2 feel independant. i had 2 wake up everyday n boil da water 4 me and my roomates. i even made milo and cereal. haha. feel like a mum. but sum how, i kept on wakin up damn early. 4 am!! i gues i was just cold or nervous. took many pics for memories. da last day of da trip was at tis palace. haa..den we went 2 makan and wen 2 a candy store. it was awesome. haha. sat in da bus, sang songs. when we reached skul, we said our gudbyes 2 techers principal, and our frens. i will mis tis wonderful skul tat brought me so much joy. sjkc chong hwa..an amazing skul which brought me countless memories tat i will nvr forget.^^
well, noe..im currently goin 2 smktm. haha. rockin skul. b4 tat. went 2 another skul smk zon r 1. met tons of new frens. it was great. spend abt a month der. in da class 1 rajin. my god brother was in tat skul, he made it easier for me there. :) i remember my laz day in tat skul..my frens wan yee, pei xuan, and li wei brought me 2 da padang and we played like hell. it was so fun. ahahah. miss dem so much. oso...one of da closest frens i made der. low chia yin. she was an awesome fren. miss her la..
afta dat, 1st feb, friday, i went 2 smktm. i was nervous. my sis brought me and we went 2 sign up. da woman almost sent me 2 1k. bt, den she changed her mind. haiz. i gues sum thgs were meant 2 be. went 2 my class..it was moral class. my sis intro me 2 leesha. well, joelle, i really gt 2 thnk her. she was so warm and caring. she accepted me as a fren so quickly. yeeting 2. i rmbr, we always walk around da skul during rehat.talkin...both of them we tellin me abt da skul and da ppl in iit. fun fun. den i mixed with hemah's gang. it was interestin. still i stuck close 2 yeeting.
den joelle intro me 2 kesh and nigel. dey were so nice. afta a long time. dey used 2 ejek me lyk hell. but nw we're tight. sat wif sharmila on da 1st day. she intro me 2 naresha. den slowly...ppl jz came along. dev..steppie..tommy..den prakkash. and from dem i met many more, kong, sharlene, ruth, song shin, and much much more.
last year was so awesome. i had so much fun. during da hols, i would always go hang at prakkash's house 2 lepak. wif my so call gang-sharmila, naresha, keshen, prakkash and kong. we usually wen 2 kklub. chill der. it was just very enjoyable. i miss those momments so much. =(
2009 started. and i met even more frens. it was great. new students came, michelle and wong! haha...they sure changed much in my life. bt life is filled with changes. tsu ning left. miss her alot. jz recently we had another new gal..anndrea. haha, she's great. :) a new guy joined our gang. ooi jin chern. he fit in perfectly. ahahah. he is such an awesome fren. we went out, all of her, in a gang. it was great. lepakin at da padang..haa..it made me smile.^^
now...lately..things are changin...gud and bad...haiz. i just wished i can turn back time...to all da gud times. i gues i cant do anything. i miss da old times so much. haiz. but life is filled with changes..i hope things will turn out right. haha. i love all my frens. i hope no matter when and how they are? i hope they are doin well! god bless them all. :)

that's all for now. (read it and weep signin out)>,<

bored........

hihi bloggie!
well, nothing much has been going on in school, kinda boring these days. feel so annoyed with life la lately. hmm...so...jz talk abt stuff tat have been happening lately.
15 aug-i went 2 mtv world stage. it was freakin awesome! went with nigel, feel so hapi and lucky to be able 2 attend this special event. nigel u rock! haha. had a blast jumping around like a mad person with sharmila n my sis. martin from boys like gals b4 singing thunder aka best momment of all. it started 2 rain, so he said: i feel a rain cumin on, all it needs is some....thunder..' omg...it was like awesome wei! den afta da concert, we played with a jukebox at a cafe, it was so funi. we were simply pressing numbers and we gave up, so we walked off...suddenly:" my lips like sugar.." lol...da song sugar played. it was so damn funi wei. we 3 paused and turned arnd together. ahahaha..
well...in skul...fight with people. get back with people. its weird la...i guess i always have 2 fight with ppl. tis momment in life...i really feel da pressure rising between frenships..haiz...duno la.. if they wana fight...leet them la. all i cn do is just stand here.. and face the music.
i tink that hurtin other ppl is da wronf thing 2 do..but..i gues..haizzz...nvm...
i just hope things would turn out right...prayin for it.
thats all...for now...dad...lol..
bye.

my class is retarded..

~ 2H ~

haaaa....2day...damn funi la. da macha's ejek sharmila like hell wei. i think 1 of them like sharmila. i really do. whereever she go, some1 wil say : eee bleuk, socks! hahahah. scary la. like stalker. they actuali followed her and use their hand and block her wei. lucky she call out naresha name and when she came, dey all let go of sharmila. worried la, i hope 2day, she was ok. :)hmm...yea lo, normal day lo. ntg special. but we got to talk 2 keshen alot. we spend time talking and asking each other abt each other. i know...we're all lame. haha. den keshen ask me whats his laz name, me and sharmila was like: uuh, carissa. u ask la, dun layan kesh. hahahah. kesian em. i conteng bubu's hand. hahah. i write bubu oni. den he ask me add more. so i conteng lyk hell. hah. padan muke. :P we talked about u 2. haha. everyone la. zhen, prakkash, naresha.den we talk about ong, we laugh like shit wei. that was damn funi! you oso know right hee very shy with gals. so my fren, syamim, she tk tahan. cuz he always luk away when she say hi. so tham n ravern ask me and sharmila 2 say hi. but he still tk jawab! so, tham said:"hey lets ask elliza go flirt wif him.." btw, eliza very gila gal in my glas. so we went 2 elliza and ask her. she was laughin. so we went 2 sit down. den ravern said: elliza, now!!elliza got up, she walk over to ong. like damn flirty wei. we laughin lyk hell ady. den she sat on ong's table, she fold her leg lyk tryin 2 luk sexy.. we all laughin till gona pee! goh even fell of da chair laughin!!! den she go touch em and was lyk: 'hiiiiii oonnnnggg!" and guess wat? he still luk away!!! omg!. we all were like...that proves it...he is gay. ahahahahahahhaha. XDden lagi worst. tham!!! taadaaa. go act lyk gal, and sat on ong lap. den he face his butt and em and lyk, hey baby! u so sexy. we laugh lyk shit wei.!! den ravern go pull his pants up 2 show his sexy legs. hahahahaha!!!!!!. im tink i was gona die wei! haha..my class rocks la. 2 harmoni rocks!!! ^^

missing da good times..

you know wat? haizz...i really miss da old times i had.. bad or gud..i still miss them all..

last year..hanging out with salina hemah da twins..and yeeting. i used to be damn close to her..esp. her. and now..i don't even rehat with her animore. it hurts me to see her everytime. i do miss her alot..and i know i have hurt her badly..but all i can do now is just try to make her happy wenever i can. hope it works..she even wrote poems about me..looking at those words..it really made me cry..i feel so bad..i hope i can make it up to her..

last year was da best...when all of us were in one block. it was so much easier to hang with my gang. now i have to walk over to another block..and hide from norliah.. haiz. everytime solat..i just had to walk over to da opposite side and find kong and prakkash and nareshaa. now..its just like, we were all meant to be apart..

laz year we all used to lepak at kklub and prakkash's house. we were all so close. we never separated and stuck together. this year..things started changing. we had a new person in our gang..ooi jin chern. we weren't tat close last year cause he and prakkash gt probs. but now dey are like bros. damn close. that i didnt mind at all. then we got a new student..michelle..who changed many lives..den ppl in our gang started fallin for each other..ok...still can tahan..

used to be freaking close to keshen...now..he's closer to da guys...wel..cant blame em. den prakkash too..cant blame em either. got damn close to zhen zhen. he was so sweet. i remembered he always ejek me. like one time..i told em i rock! den he said: i dun fully agree wif u on tat. u are a rock..bt u dun rock..get it? he is just so random. he was great in our gang. making us all hapi. kong too..he stayed da same. lucky me! ^^

during the mid year..things started to change...worse and worst! i wasnt tat close to nigel anymore. but at least he still tells me secrets. and once i fought with kong. i cant blame em..i was so emo and rude. he's a great pal, and he forgave me..but after that, i fought with zhen. it seems like no matter what i do..i will have to lose somebody.. i started being negative again. i cried more often. its hard..cause..sometimes when you are so close to someone...and sudenli den jz go so far away from you..its really painful for me..i rememberd about a month ago..i had an emotional meltdown. i cried for an hour and a half none stop. i just couldnt stop..da pain was so sharp. my heart was breaking..

and now..im not tat close to joelle..im changing into a monster! talkin about other people..not being as nice as i was b4. i feel so selfish! i just miss hanging out in a gang again. no pain..just hapiness and laughter.

last friday..we got to go to prakkash house to hang out. 6 of us. like dy old times. it was so fun. i dun tink i ever laugh tat much b4. kesh and sharmila was so lame.:P but damn funi. i loved that momment so much..i wish i could go through it again.. though zhen wasn't there..it was fun^^

i miss zhen sooo much. i mis joelle too. everyone!!! including da old me. where have all these people gone too. everyone luks da same..but they are like strangers to me now.. giving me da cold shoulder..i hate that so much.

life seems so empty now...i try to fill it up..but ppl keep making da hapiness flow out again n again. i feel like giving up. i noe i have to accept da fact that i cant keep all my frens wif me. but i wish i could. i really miss them all so much..i miss you all..please come back:(

that's all for now..bye.

i wrote tis cause im hyper and bored...

hihi my magnificent bloggie! ^^ im just sooo hyper right now..haha. so im damn bored...sitting in da living room. and here comees kong woon ping..asking me to write a blog. so...ok. haha. im so lame. keshen is right... 0.o lol...

well...today was a not so normal school day. couldnt wake up! was busy chattin wif kong and phil laz night till 3am! haha. both of them are so damn funi. phil so innocent la..but i cant believe he touch kal's .... ahahahaha. well...he oni n"luks" innocent. eggy tan....hehe. kong was so retarded wei...making me laugh! and if he is reading this..KONG WOON PING..IF YOU EVER CALL ME KLIA AGAIN..I WIL SLAP YOU! hahaha.

well..back to today...i woke up at my nani's house and started doin my english project. omg...almost died rushing to finish it. well..i like anime so...who can blame me. ^^ looked at my watch..12.30!!! tick tock tick tock..time was running out. went 2 bath and ran to school. luckily i got there in time. phewww.....came down and saw shaarmila and naresha. my hair was in a mess...haiyoyo..=.=''

my watch was moving....time was tickin. one by one my frens came. then kong came...i ran to him...and he ran away...lol. then i saw philip. we laughed and talked about yesterday's chat. it was so awesome la..and when jo-l ask to me teman her...i ask her pull me...and i fell on MY BUTT!! boohoo! T.T though i was still laughing like crazy. haha.

hopped over to class and sat with nigel and prem. we talked about life and how much we miss da old times. especially me!!!

then recess. me and phil went to annoy kong for rm50 like he promised, but da dummy saying oni sweet wrappers. but in da end he gave me and sharmila rm3 2 buy sweets. after taking my share..i gave philip da rest. he was sooo cute la. den naresha came by...suddenly kong pulled phil to aside and started burst out laughin! i was lyk???... den naresha told me it was her clip...a butterfly. i started laughin. den i was lyk:" wat about da one in ur..." i pointed at her singlet. kong and phil laughed even more. naressha and i x stop laughin. its so fun la with my frens ;)

when back to class. started singing so retarded stuff. doing funi actions along withh the songs. so hyper la with sharmila. suddenly tommy's class came to my block. i was like...yay...can kacau them! after maths..i went down to sains class. put my bag down and waited for S class to come down. finally they did!!! me, sharmila, elaine, and stephanie went to kacau kong. haha. he was soo perverted! and again...KLIA =,=''...

went in sains and did experiment about air pressure. tham and keshen was soo funi spilling da water again...and again..and again. hahah. then me nick keshen and aliff started talking abt our kindergarden..CEC. i din noe soo many ppl were from tat school. talkin abt tat reallt reminded me about my childhood..:)

after that..got out of class and went to da court. talk talk talk..hugs den kong walked me and ruth out. thx kong! ^^ lol. and my day ended..kinda..

went home..eat...did h/w and now im writing tis blog... hahah.

thats all for now..

BYEEEZZZ >.<

tell me why?

tell me why i cant be happy anymore?

all thats's happening is making my heart pain and sore!

is this what im supose to go through till i graduate?

im trying to stop it, but it's just too late..

tell me why things can't ever go the way i want?
trying to stop crying, but i just can't,

we all use to hang out so often,

but out friendships have crashed and burn..

tell me why we are fighting?

the pain is so piercing, like the birght lightning..

is it me or them am i to blame,

i guess i must accept that things can never be the same..

tell me why this all happened to all of us?

is the pain i mention in the first verse..

im feeling so frustrated and sad..

why did things have to turn out that bad?

tell me why am i even writing this down?

my friends are not talking, there's not a single sound..

i can't stand it, im want to be free,

but the only option is for me to leave..

tell me why? must this happen again?

life seems so meaningless these days..

is it even worth living?

i dont know what to think anymore...

END>>>

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well...does time fly...

it really does. half a school year is gone...that means im half a year older! ^^ lol.

well...alot has changed since the begining of tis year (2009)..that's for sure..

i earned new frens...and lost some.. well...i cant do anything about it...life is filled with changes..i cant change da way it rolls..

the begining of this year..life was easier..much much more eazier.. but lately, everything i worked for..seems to be falling apart, frenships...im lossing so many people lately i cant stand da pain. i know life for meant 2 b filled with changes..bt does tat mean i really have 2 lose my frens.

fighting with them for a stupid reason, not talkin cause of ego, its just a foolish thing to do..

looking through tis pics..really makes me miss so many people in my life... i hope i could go back to tis happy times...i hope..really hope..that everyone can live happily..

i miss you all...alot...please come back...i dun wana lose any of you.. thats all i ask for..is for you all to stay together..

as long as you all are happy...so am i..so stay happy..:)

~read it and weep signin out~