you're leaving me today...and i cant call of reach you for maybe a week. hahaha...well..we've tahan not seeing each other for a month before right? im such a baby...sorry. hope you have a safe trip and have loads of fun:) will miss ya! and yes..i mean it==
its freakin 3am in the morning! wat am i doin here! talkin to zhen just gave me a slight sense of relief. and hving chuiyin care for me was the best:) am i okay she asks? sorry dear if you're readin this..i lied. haha. but dont people always? a white lie is better than hurtin others or makin them worried about you. so i guess why not. i post on fb that im emo..but when ppl ask..i say im fine. how plain stupid is dat?== but well..dont wana tink about crap when my life's actually pretty awesome:). i should be thankful.
gonna freestyle here and crap all the things i wan to because i can:D
come lets do another series of questioning? lame right. haiz. im so bored and lame. no lifed as they said. ahhahahah. why am i laughin..this is lame==. 1.2.3. goo!!!!!
why am i so caught up in making things right with everyone?
why do i give a damn to a thing everybody says?
why is it so awkward to talk to her?
isit because she talked behind my back when i trusted her ?
or isit just me?
why cant i accept the fact i cant have everything i wan?
why do i have to be so selfish?
isit the right thing?
or wrong thing?
why do i have to choose?
why do i think so much about you?
why do i still think about you?
and why dont i think more about you?
why do i feel so guilty?
why cant i just be heartless and mean?
why did i even say that? ==
what do you mean when you say 'i love you'?
do i perasan too much?
am i just craving for attention?
or am i just an emo wreck?
why do i like icecream but never eat it anymore?
what kind of a question is that? -.-
why do i miss you when im not suppose to?
why don't i miss you when im suppose to?
did i really hurt you?
do you know that you've hurt me too?
will you all ever forgive me truly?
why do i envy you?
why do i get jealous ?
why do i have to bring everyone down when i can prevent it all?
isnt it stupid and foolish?
why cant i just move on?
why cant i just appreciate all i have?
why ow why?
i really wonder do i need a huge slap on the face telling me..: HEY YOU ASS! WAKE UP AND SMELL THE COFFEE! REALITY SUXS! And yours is not bad at all..why cant you just deal with all you have before its too late.
why cant i insert that and store it permanently in my thick stubborn skull?
tc..ttfn..CONFUSED AND GUILTY AS EVER..
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