SKY HIGH:D

i just got an obsession over blue skies...and puffy clouds...so to satisfy my craving..imma share some of my recent and old pictures that i took :D...and edited..ENJOY^^

a sunset right before my eyes...
the bright blazing sun...shining above the clouds..which looks like a calm ocean..

sun shining brightly spreading its glory and reflection onto the riverbank of london..

gateway to a world beyond belief><

everything in nature is simply breathtaking ...i really need to learn to appreciate how beautiful is really is before i dont get a chance to in the future..

i love you mother nature..<3

my favourite picture of all..im so proud of myself!!xD

footsteps in the sky gliding pass me. this is is obviously edited...but i just made it darker and sharper...love the quote there...:)

that's all for now...ttfn..^^

readitandweep signing off

DILEMMA =S

hahahhahah...i finally learnt how to spell dilemma properly==..so lame right? all thanks to Jeremy:D..weeee:D...ahahhahah...why am i laughin? so lame wei==...haiz..back to my reason of why im posting this post..
update baby:D...i found out more stuff which i shouldnt have found out today...yay...curiousity always kills the cat..in this case...the cat is me...my feelings? haiz. i dunno. things are so weird. after chatting i thought i would feel a sense of relief...bt i feel much worst than before. stupid me><..
i smell another fight with him...i really do. i dunno isit a tradition or just badluck...something i do..always cause us to fight. haiz. wtf man==..why does it always have to be this freakin way? why cant everything just cool down..and be alright? i just..haiz...no words to say:(
regret...do i? yea..of how early was mine. out of all the people...im the most surprise of myself? i dunno...it just happened. and well...i don't blame anyone for it though..i just feel like...it was wrong..but well...what can i do? its done. i bet i hurt alot of people...haha...im a heartbreaker aren't i? figures...:(
im having the time of the month again..and my moodswings are driving me nuts! i cant stand it..one second im happy...the next im emo..i just really...haiz..i cant blame the pms doh? maybe its just the way i am..my personality is up and down constantly? why does it have to be like that? curses==
i feel like breaking down everytime...its so shitty...like everything has to go wrong at the same time? why? why da hell must it? maybe im a tad sensitive but..really...its unfair...bt i guess its karma for my own wrong doings.. i just...really need someone that cn understand how i feel. yeeting...where are you? i need you..but i know...out of all the people..i dissapointed you the most...im so sorry:(
AAARGHHH!! PMS starting up again..im just so sorry to YOU for hurtin YOU all the time. please understand that i don't mean to..and i don't want to..but i did...so please forgive me...please...im really sorry:(...all i want is for u to smile...tc....

OLALA:D

it's not the way you see me,
now,
it's the way you let me down
i cant blieve tht it hurts this much
when i hear voice
your calling out to me
though i noe i cant be wif u
so pls dont leave
i'll jz keep some distance
i hope you see
i can never be without u
just try to see the way i see

thanks for this...you rock:)..

what if?

questions and questions all over again...imma ask myself some..and see the outcome of them....here goes..confused person asking and answering her own questions:)..

1. what if you when to methodist wesley? ans: my life would be completely different i guess. perhaps i would still have mended me and jia hui's relationship. but im sure there would still be drama. well...i always wondered to myself would it be better if i had moved there last time. but then again..i wouldnt hv the awesome friends i have now, would i? haha.

2. what if you didnt meet the people you know now? ans: oh my...i really wouldnt be able to imagine life without this people. like zhen once said.."i'd lose a part of me loosing you". i totally agree. i would never be the gal i am today..so what if there were regrets? the happy memories overpowers everything..and well..these people do make my life a heck of a joyride:)..

ok pause. this is getting worthless...i cant answer stuff that i already know...so yea..here are a couple of 'what if's' that i really wonder everyday:)

3. what if i was never born?
4. what if i was born a boy like my dad wished for? (lolsss==)
5. what if i didnt have to wear glasses at a young age?
6. what if people saw me differently..and actually take more than a second to look at me instead?
7. what if they did, would i enjoy the attention that i crave i get now?
8. what if i didnt go to the kindergarden i went to?
9. what if life be different not meeting chuiyin earlier?
10. what if i stayed in first class till i was std 6?
11. what if i did and would me and jia hui had ever fought?
12. what if that never happen and would me carmen and chuiyin be closer than we are now?
13. what if i actually got into kreatif when i was form 1 and not harmoni?
14. what if i didnt fall for *him* if i went his class?
15. what if i was inlove with another or just plain single?
16. what if i did and my relationship with all my friends were different?
17. what if i never met joelle?
18. what if i was quiet and never be social with the K people?
19. what if i never got close to keshen and nigel?
20. what if i never got close to kong?
21. what if i never got to know kong and the people after that?
22. what if i never got to know yeeting as close as i do now?
23. what if i still did...would i appreciate her as much?
24. what if i never met tommy? dev? josiah? philip?
25. what if i never met shaarmila?
26. what if i never got to know naresha and ruth and her gang?
27. what if i didnt..would i be the gal i am now?
28. what if i did meet them all?
29. what if i was in cbn?
30. what if i was ..would i get into fights with carmen and chuiyin?
31. what if i didnt fall for him when i first met him?
32. what if i didnt and my feelings for the other stuck?
33. what if i never fought with kong?
34. what if joelle and nigel stayed the same class till now?
35. what if i never got closer to philip? or dev? or zhen?
36. what if yeeting never left?
37. what if she didnt..would i be this depressed? or independant?
38. what if s & n never fought?
38. what if they never.. would my opinion on my friends have changed?
39. what if i never got close to kiren and the gang
40. what if i never went to that first try out class for prestige?
41. what if i never went for any tuition at all?
42. what if i never ask him and he never confessed to me?
43. what if i never got close to shyam?
44. what if i never got to know andrea?
45. what if i stayed loyal to one of them?
46. what if i didn't?
47. what if i took the chance with one of them?
48. what if i ended up with one of them?
49. what if i did? would it last?
50. what if i never hurt them?
51. what if i didnt..would i be happier them i am now?
52. what if i was more selfish?
53. what if i continued to lie?
54. what if i followed what my heart wanted and never gave a damn to other ppl's opinion?
55. what if i did?
56. what if? and would i be happier than i am now?
57. what if love never existed?
58. what if friendship never existed?
59. what if i never wrote this blog?
60. what if?

there are many questions in a person's life...and well...you ask yourself many things...and even though deep down sometimes...you think you know the right answer? you might be wrong. or you might be right.

would you have taken the chance on faith..and challenge yourself..even if hurt was gonna come along. and what if everything was worth it? what if it wasnt? you just cant ever be sure cant you? hahaha.

taking a leap of faith...is a option..but it isnt the only option...right now...im just looking for that other option...for my path in life...im searching..the chase is always better than the catch. lets just hope it's worth it.
readinandweep signin out:).. still confused