what if?

questions and questions all over again...imma ask myself some..and see the outcome of them....here goes..confused person asking and answering her own questions:)..

1. what if you when to methodist wesley? ans: my life would be completely different i guess. perhaps i would still have mended me and jia hui's relationship. but im sure there would still be drama. well...i always wondered to myself would it be better if i had moved there last time. but then again..i wouldnt hv the awesome friends i have now, would i? haha.

2. what if you didnt meet the people you know now? ans: oh my...i really wouldnt be able to imagine life without this people. like zhen once said.."i'd lose a part of me loosing you". i totally agree. i would never be the gal i am today..so what if there were regrets? the happy memories overpowers everything..and well..these people do make my life a heck of a joyride:)..

ok pause. this is getting worthless...i cant answer stuff that i already know...so yea..here are a couple of 'what if's' that i really wonder everyday:)

3. what if i was never born?
4. what if i was born a boy like my dad wished for? (lolsss==)
5. what if i didnt have to wear glasses at a young age?
6. what if people saw me differently..and actually take more than a second to look at me instead?
7. what if they did, would i enjoy the attention that i crave i get now?
8. what if i didnt go to the kindergarden i went to?
9. what if life be different not meeting chuiyin earlier?
10. what if i stayed in first class till i was std 6?
11. what if i did and would me and jia hui had ever fought?
12. what if that never happen and would me carmen and chuiyin be closer than we are now?
13. what if i actually got into kreatif when i was form 1 and not harmoni?
14. what if i didnt fall for *him* if i went his class?
15. what if i was inlove with another or just plain single?
16. what if i did and my relationship with all my friends were different?
17. what if i never met joelle?
18. what if i was quiet and never be social with the K people?
19. what if i never got close to keshen and nigel?
20. what if i never got close to kong?
21. what if i never got to know kong and the people after that?
22. what if i never got to know yeeting as close as i do now?
23. what if i still did...would i appreciate her as much?
24. what if i never met tommy? dev? josiah? philip?
25. what if i never met shaarmila?
26. what if i never got to know naresha and ruth and her gang?
27. what if i didnt..would i be the gal i am now?
28. what if i did meet them all?
29. what if i was in cbn?
30. what if i was ..would i get into fights with carmen and chuiyin?
31. what if i didnt fall for him when i first met him?
32. what if i didnt and my feelings for the other stuck?
33. what if i never fought with kong?
34. what if joelle and nigel stayed the same class till now?
35. what if i never got closer to philip? or dev? or zhen?
36. what if yeeting never left?
37. what if she didnt..would i be this depressed? or independant?
38. what if s & n never fought?
38. what if they never.. would my opinion on my friends have changed?
39. what if i never got close to kiren and the gang
40. what if i never went to that first try out class for prestige?
41. what if i never went for any tuition at all?
42. what if i never ask him and he never confessed to me?
43. what if i never got close to shyam?
44. what if i never got to know andrea?
45. what if i stayed loyal to one of them?
46. what if i didn't?
47. what if i took the chance with one of them?
48. what if i ended up with one of them?
49. what if i did? would it last?
50. what if i never hurt them?
51. what if i didnt..would i be happier them i am now?
52. what if i was more selfish?
53. what if i continued to lie?
54. what if i followed what my heart wanted and never gave a damn to other ppl's opinion?
55. what if i did?
56. what if? and would i be happier than i am now?
57. what if love never existed?
58. what if friendship never existed?
59. what if i never wrote this blog?
60. what if?

there are many questions in a person's life...and well...you ask yourself many things...and even though deep down sometimes...you think you know the right answer? you might be wrong. or you might be right.

would you have taken the chance on faith..and challenge yourself..even if hurt was gonna come along. and what if everything was worth it? what if it wasnt? you just cant ever be sure cant you? hahaha.

taking a leap of faith...is a option..but it isnt the only option...right now...im just looking for that other option...for my path in life...im searching..the chase is always better than the catch. lets just hope it's worth it.
readinandweep signin out:).. still confused